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So..this week, I lost my job, and my grandmother.  It was like having all the air knocked out of me TWICE.  I was distraught at first, then angry, then sad, then helpless, then distraught again.  My mother told me I needed to look at what i still had, and just feel blessed.  It's so hard after so much loss though.  I feel like all my plans for the future have come to a staggering halt.   Things were coming together for me, only to suddenly fall apart.  

School starts next week and I'm stressed about money, so i'm looking for a new job. Yet another part of me just wants to be cheap and live off of unemployment, eat cup a noodle all day, and spend all my extra money on drugs and tattoos.  The life i left behind for work and commitment suddenly looks familiar and safe to me, and it's oh so tempting. 

Right now, I'm not giving in though.  I've applied for unemployment, but I'm also looking for a new job.  I am eating a big bowl of black berries instead of microwaved noodles.  I am not about to waste my time or money on drugs.  I am going to try to be positive, find a hobby, help my parents, work on myself.  Because, there must be something off about me.  I couldn't have lost my job so suddenly without reason.  If they won't tell me why, then I guess i'll just have to look inward, and find out for myself. 

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Comment by So Spiffy on January 12, 2014 at 5:07pm

I'm so sorry to hear that, Sky. I recently lost my Dad and my Grandma, and the sadness and loss never goes away. Allow yourself all the time you need to grieve and take it day by day. Not only the loss of your dear Grandmother, but the added loss of a job are two major life-altering events. I can hear the strength in your words, and I believe you won't give in to the old life you left behind. I'm sure your Grandma would want you to be positive and stay on the right path. It's less than ideal timing about your job, but I'm certain something even better will come along soon. Take care and again, my condolences.

Comment by Windlord on January 11, 2014 at 3:04pm

That's a lot of stressors in a short time, Sky.  My condolences for your grandmother.  It sounds like you were close in heart, and I know how special mine was to me.    

There is a time to count blessings, and there is also a time to simply feel the loss.  Feel free to write, (here if you like) cry, scream, and talk it out with those you most trust that support you.

Peace   

Comment by Sun~Rose on January 11, 2014 at 12:06pm

I'm so sorry about your Grandmother. She still loves You though, and You can feel that.

Not just your future, but your present, is big with blessings Sky. 

And You don't sound 'off' to me.  Perhaps Love has something much better for You than You planned. 

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