30 Bananas a Day!

The last week has been the most traumatic of my life and I’ve been to hell and back.  I’m writing all this in hindsight as I was too exhausted and negative to document it at the time, so a lot of it is a hazy memory.

Day 8 – Bad sleep again due to neck and shoulder tension.  Today I fell into a world of fear based insanity where I was having a mental battle in my head between good and evil and I experienced real fear for the first time.  Lots of frightening visuals and I had a bit of a zing in my teeth which I remember from the times I took acid in the past.  I really had a struggle to get through this and re-establish a stable mind and grasp on reality.  I just kept repeating to myself “Love and gratitude” and imagined myself glowing like a bright white/blue light from within as it seemed I was getting consumed by shadow.   This got me through it and by the evening I was feeling sane again.  Worst day of my life to date.

Day 9 – Slept better last night.  Awoke with pressure pushing into my temples.  Today I got the ecstasy blues big time.  I went through a period 10 years ago of taking lots of e’s (approximately 80 tablets in a 10 month period).  So I think I can pretty much say I know what it feels like to come down off ecstasy pretty well.  This felt like coming off all 80 tablets at once.  Sent me into an afternoon of intense cravings for the foods I used to eat when I used to take this drug.  Also sent me into a downward emotional spiral based on feeling a loss of euphoria and connection.  I felt so strung out by the end of the day and eventually crashed.  A new girl at re-feeding who was sick for her entire fast is great to talk to this about due to her past of drugs.  This helped me a lot today.

Day 10 – Got some sleep purely from mental and physical exhaustion.  Going through a repeat of yesterday and still feeling the down from the drug.  Some more good chats at re-feeding with my new friend cheer me up though.

Day 11 –. Another repeat of the last two days.  Nothing really to add. 

Day 12 – The ecstasy down seems to be over but I’m starting to feel like something else is coming on.  The longer I have my eyes open the wider they want to open and stay open.  If I don’t go to bed between meals they get watery and feel like they’re going to pop out of my head.  I have a painful pressure behind hem pushing them out.  I have heard this can happen with cocaine but never took enough of it to know the feeling so who knows what it could be.  Got some bad news this afternoon which really angered me and pushes me to the limits mentally and emotionally.  My new friend noticed my extreme state and offered to go for a chat down the lookout out.  I really needed to talk to someone about the news I had gotten as I was not coping with it so gladly accepted her offer.  She became a guiding light for me and led me out of the shadow that was consuming me.  I will be eternally grateful to her for this.  I realised this was no ordinary girl and discovered she (amongst other things) does crystal healing and she lent me a crystal to hold in times of overwhelming negativity that really seems to work.  My hands just grasp it so tightly it kind of starts hurting.  It’s meant to draw negative energy out of the body.  I think it’s called luddite but not sure.  At times I had to put it down and even move it to the other side of the room as it became too much

Day 13 – No sleep last night as I can’t stop thinking about what had happened.  The crystal did help though and today starts off shakey but tension starts to clear by mid morning and my mood begins to lift.  I start getting a strange feeling as the pressure I have been experiencing on my temples increases to the whole side of my body.  I feel like my left side is pushing to the right and vice versa.  I also have a central dividing line down my body which feels like it is pushing outwards.  Kind of like I’m folding in half.  When I type my hands keep wanting to cross over and I’m cross eyed in my mind.  My teeth all feel like they are twisting inwards and my mouth is divided with two tongues.  At one stage my left and right sides have swapped places.  I’m being split into two.  I cried this afternoon and it felt good.

Day 14 – Slept great!  I’m on top of the world today and have heaps of energy!  The strange division yesterday seems to be gone and it’s like a channel down the centre of my body has been cleared.  An emotional negative plug has been removed and I am feeling full emotions for the first time in my life.  I can cry when I think of sad things and am more joyous when I think of good things.  I’m more excited about life and have less inhibitions.  I want to get up and dance!  I start thinking about this logically and I figure that this emotional negative blockage has been building up since childhood and been making me more and more detached from my emotions the older and more toxic I got.  This layer of toxic food matter/drugs/alcohol and negative energy has been building up in my intestines and my behavior had been starting to reflect this during my later 20’s and early 30’s.  I had become very selfish and didn’t care who I hurt as long as I got what I wanted.  This week and a half of bowel elimination seems to have cleared that negative plug and cleansed me.  I haven’t taken drugs in over ten years so these must have been trapped in body somewhere and were released back into the blood stream to be purged by the body once and for all.  Pretty exciting stuff!  I’m also extremely hungry for the first time in a week and get my food increased.  Also onto pineapple which is amazing!  Best day of my life to date!

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Comment by Stephen on February 8, 2011 at 9:46am

Fair call on the title.  I was actually thinking about that before and decided to see if I could can change it and all the previous ones.  I want this blog to focus on the results of fasting and to be a positive read for people.  I do see the value of you pursuing him if you feel there has been an injustice.  Just be careful not to let your anger become a negative consuming force.  It's just not worth it.

Life in a state of positivity is the only life worth living.

Hope you can understand where I'm coming from on this.



Comment by David on February 8, 2011 at 9:24am
If this minor effort of elucidation is not in itself sufficient to drive tanglewood to extinction, let it at least artificially force it into greater humility.

My post got trimmed. Sorry. It´s my last.

I know you´ll get the joy you´re after.

Comment by David on February 8, 2011 at 9:06am

Hi Stephen,


The title is too explicit. I didn´t know I was supposed to omit it.


Comment by Stephen on February 8, 2011 at 8:39am

David I know where you are coming from and that's cool and I agree with it all.  This is a blog though and not a post.  It is about me and my experience doing a water fast, re-fed on fruit and not about Loren or tanglewood.  Please respect that.



Comment by David on February 8, 2011 at 8:27am
Hi Stephen,

Thank you for the reply.

This is an open discussion. Being a person who as always cared about the well being of others, I feel an obligation and right to intervening whenever my opinion can display a needed perspective on any given matter. I would also perceive your request to moderate the development of the topic strictly according to your own will as a little narcissistic.

It is hard to figure out where is the negativity in exposing a subject that will make more people capable of forming a well grounded opinion. That is, and always will be positive.

It is worrying that nowadays the majority of people are deceived into ever believing that the finest route into peace is to not stand up to the scrutiny. I know that to be a reflection of the indoctrination process that is numbing the world down in submission to the warmongering oligarchy.

The idea that there is "no perfect place to fast or perfect supervisor", as an excuse to be permissive with the inadmissible and even criminal behaviour of an individual and his business, is nothing but an expressive symptom of the above mentioned syndrome of passivity.

And regarding the affordability of the place, it goes back to the old fat worm on the tip of the fishing hook, or even how the cheap tools end up giving higher expenses.

I have fasted with a woman for a month. We had a blast, although we were not expecting as fasters, having to supervise the "supervisors". In fact, we didn´t really fast, we simply didn´t eat. Fasting means true rest, and slanderous words and lies have no place in a fasting menu. There was no drama, other than the one being imposed on us. But don´t take my word for it, or even that of the dozens of other fasters and harassed women, or even of the highly reputed health leaders and fasting authorities. Take the word of the staff. Of his local, spanish speaking staff. Those certainly can´t be wrong.

If this minor effort of elucidation is not in itself sufficient to drive tanglewood
Comment by Stephen on February 8, 2011 at 7:40am

Thanks Adam, I really value your input!

Yes that ordeal showed to me that I am a lot stronger than I thought and that has been a very powerful realization for me.  I am so much more confident now about myself than I ever have been!




Comment by Adam on February 8, 2011 at 7:18am

Hey Stephen


I have so looked forward to your posts each week. They are truly inspirational, and reading this post today. wow. It takes such a lot of strength, courage and poise to deal with the most overwhelming emotions. Sounds like you have been getting some really incredible insights.


I can't wait to hear next weeks post.


Take care


Adam x

Comment by Stephen on February 8, 2011 at 2:02am

Hi David,

I'd to keep this blog about me and my fasting experience.  I have had a life changing, hell and back, journey here and decided when I came not to get involved in all the negative stuff.  There is no perfect place to fast or perfect supervisor.  For many people this is the only place they can afford to go.  You just got to see the silver lining and aim to make it through the fast.  I don't know where I'd be if I had let myself get caught up in the dramas here as others have allowed themselves to be.  



Comment by David on February 8, 2011 at 1:45am
Hi Stephen,

I am glad your doing ok, but for the sake of others who didn´t I must post the following link as public service warning.

Comment by Stephen on February 8, 2011 at 1:27am

A movie?! Wow thank you L Jane!  Yes my new friend Paola is very special to me.  I hope to be able to help her if she has any issues for the remainder of her stay here.

Ednshell - thanks for your continual support and encouragement!





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