Yesterday I decided to have a thali at The Taste of Lewisham. They're only available until 5pm, so it was a daytime meal. I haven't been treating diet with strict discipline, and I don't intend to, so I didn't argue with myself about it: I fancied it so I had it. The spices got some stuff moving in my chest and I coughed up some matter as I cycled home, and this may have done me some good. The main effect of the meal, however, was a feeling of heaviness and a lack of enthusiasm for anything for the rest of the day except vegging in front of the computer screen. It increased the viscosity of my day and everything seemed like too much effort. This is the repeated effect of cooked food generally and especially in the daytime. Also, later on I has a banana smoothie meal and this too felt heavy, like it was just sitting on top of the cooked food from earlier.
By indulging in these whims I am gradually weaning myself off the foods that are the least helpful to me. Pasties and patties are well and truly off the menu, now after a few bad experiences and thalis are going the same way. I really don't want a repeat of yesterday. In this way my diet improves not through discipline, commitment and a sense of 'should', but through a genuine desire to avoid foods that kill my vitality based on firm experience. This is a more robust way forward for me, even if it takes a bit more time and means I have a few rubbish days along the way.
On the other side of the coin, I keep in mind what Durianrider said on a recent video, that emotional strength is needed to keep on track. Stress, being under-carbed, and especially tiredness bring about a weakness in my ability to think straight and can lead me into self sabotaging behaviours, and it is at these times that I need to watch myself and try to remain alert to what is best rather than being drawn along by inner voices that are remnants of old and obsolete habitual behaviours. Carb up, get enough sleep, etc., etc.