After falling off bouncing back and forth I am making a commitment to myself and to 30bad to stick with this thing and give it my all this summer. The past 3days I've had a cooked food binge and before that I was incorporating moderate cooked food in my diet, sweet potatoes, steamed asparagus, and fish. I feel lethargic, bogged down, less connected with the universe, myself, more prone to spells of depression and weight fluctuation(bloating even without consuming salt, sweet potatoes?)
I've lost motivation to do simple things, I've meant to create a dream board for the past week, look and apply for jobs, exercise more often, spend more time outside, start P90x, draw etc instead I find an entire week has passed and I still have the same clothes in the dryer from monday, I still have the same cold from 2wks ago that hasn't left yet, and an entire week has passed where I've watched television and movies. This is not my life, this is not the life I want for myself.
I'm writing this because I want accountability. I need a reason to hold myself accountable again because I've lost all motivation. I was supposed to go to a concert with friends tomorrow but I feel so bogged down and bloated and gross I've canceled, yuk! In a week I see my boyfriend and in two weeks I am heading to florida where I need to be swimsuit ready and feeling great. So why have I not been holding myself accountable why did I let myself go down this path once again eating junk food where it is so hard to bounce back to 811.
I'm making a promise to myself and everyone on 30bad that the next 3wks I will be 100% 811 no overts and the easiest way I know how to do this at first is juice feasting(what works for me). I am going to eat plenty of fruit, get plenty of rest(shutting my phone off before bed each night), no television, limited computer time(spending the majority on 30bad for support), plenty of sunshine, cycling each day, horseback riding, P90x, sunbathing, and relaxing at the park/reading/writing/drawing, I will shake this depression and jumpstart My Summer.