I want to make a quick post about my starting point as of right now just for my own personal record. I hope this blog will show my progression to 811 and I dont want to forget exactly where I started so I can see the improvements raw by itself brings.
Female 27, 5'3 (160cm)
195.6lbs, 88.5kg (obese, but thirty pounds lighter than my highest weight)
Insulin resistant pre diabetic
1/2 to a 1 pack a day smoker
VERY high and difficult to control blood pressure 170/100 without medication
PCOS (unable to have children at the moment)
Acanthosis nigricans and skin tags (delicious!)
severe and very limiting anxiety
Luckily I don't feel that I suffer from depression but I could be happier.
So there it is, all my dirty shit that is ruining my life up here for the internet to see.
I am a nurse, and I am not an idiot. I know I am dying. I see my future very clearly in the stories of the patients I care for everyday. I see my death in the deaths of other people constantly, and yet I don't change....until now of course. (I am 20 bananas in today!)
I may lean a lot on all of you for a while. I may be very whiny, and moody and well....scared to change. I have never been so needy and infantile in my life. I have never wanted something so bad and had it seem so out of reach. The frustration of it is turning me into a child. I hope you all know how much I appreciate the things I have read. You guys are changing my life.
Speaking of life changing, this is by far my favorite DurianRider video and I have watched it at least 3 times today. https://www.youtube.com/user/durianriders#p/u/2/7_Cy8OwoD1Y