I am so surprised and satisfied. This past friday it finally sunk in that my depression might be due to lack of sufficient calories. I joined 30bad and started making a banana/date smoothie in the morning. The difference in 3 days has been amazing. My energy is up enough for me to have to exercise because I can't "nap" when I usually do. I'm awake and alert and energetic. I have so much energy I want to move and do things. I've been depressed for so long that I'm lacking ideas of what to do.
I work a pretty stressful job and last night while at work I was relaxed and clear headed. I worked a 10 hour shift (5pm-3am) and that is not normal. I was able to leave the drama with the people making it and to do my job with ease and confidence. I journaled to get the initial detachment started and just flowed with it for the rest of the night. I had energy most of the evening and was even clear minded enough to help some of my coworkers ease through their computer glitches. Mind you I am not a computer savvy person either. It was a wonderful experience and a testament to the truth that what I eat affects my brain. I put good things into my body in a quantity that would sustain my life and it showed, very quickly.
Heck, even just typing up this blog would have been "too much" for me to accomplish. My brain fog was that thick. I have been transitioning to a high raw lifestyle for the last 15 months and coming across Durianrider's and Freelee's videos in the beginning was too much for me to handle. I interpreted them as very intense and even rude. I think that was part of my brain fog. As it cleared this past month, being all raw, that perception changed. It has been funny to witness. I see now that that intensity is needed to get through to the person (myself) functioning in that fog. Harley has literally been yelling at me to trust him and his view of the "mountain" and my foggy brain was so thick that I just heard his voice as noise but I kept coming back because he and Freelee had results I wanted. I am so glad I did.