I'm tired. tired of taking care of everyone/thing else BUT me. Would it be totally selfish if i packed it all up and took off to take care of me?? been 'separated' for almost a yr. but i still run around doing things for him. groceries,cooking..ugh. dosent support me in me wanting to better myself. course he smokes and drinks soda like its water. and dont forget recreational things. which i dont think is healthy for my 4yo to see. i call myself a christian. but havent felt or acted very 'christian' lately. am full of resentment and anger.i dont like who ive become. i want my peace back. i miss the calm. i want my daughter to have the best. i wish i knew what i do now 25yrs ago. i just feel like getting rid of everything but the basics and go fruit myself for a yr. i never lived on my own. i never 'went off to college' i got preg and married at 18.. that's my fault and i love my kids. just maybe it's time for me? maybe my mid life crisis is to try to be healthier?? i have at least 100lbs to loose. i have lost 56 so far. and all i hear from family is 'oh have a soda' , order me a meatlovers stuffed crust..ugh HELLO!!!! so, am i crazy? i have changed alot this yr. i changed everything to 'natural', i make my own laundry det, deoderant, lipgloss,i use bronners,vinegar and bakingsoda on everything!! lol but i see i can do more and better. am i crazy?