So ive been looking a lot into what i can do to make the days go by better and not freak out and binge on cooked food, a lot of it has to do with how long i go inbetween meals. Yesterday for instance, i drank a 9 nanner smoothie with a bunch of strawberries in it before i got ready for work, finished the whole smoothie by 345. I then get out of work at 11 pm. So that is a considerable amount of time between meals coupled with running around a restaurant. I then rush to calories as soon as i get out of work. I MUST PUT DATES IN MY CAR!! This will help me so much, as soon as i get out of work i was used to running to calories before i made the drive home. Dates will help me so much i believe.
So i got a fantastic nights sleep and woke up at 1230. Ahh, a day off from work and everything. 2 pm rolls around and im hungry. For some reason my brain is like "go make some of your moms eggo waffles and pour maple syrup on them." i know i have all my bananas on my table and i need to eat them, plus i cant let another box go bad. Without even thinking much, i make the waffles. I put them on the plate and stare at them. I then instantly think, "This isnt even going to taste good, make a f****** smoothie." I walk right over to the trash and dump them in. I have no excuse as to why i made those waffles except for that i was hungry. my mind does bad things when it is hungry i have found out. I shoved 9 bananas in a blender, threw some raw carob powder in, and some frozen thawed out peaches. Now im drinking away. I want this so badly, and im not going to get there unless i start THINKING when im hungry. I feel like i literally dont think until ive shoved endless calories of crap food into me. This time, i thought about what i was doing before i ate those waffles, and i didnt! Big success, im trying. I know there is not trying, just doing, but im trying my best to do the right thing.
Peace Peaches <3