After 20 years on the weight rollercaoster IM OVER IT.....I've finally realised thanks to Freeleee and Durian rider (and others) drumming it into our heads, that the only way to succeed on this lifestlye and maintain a healthy body and mind and stable weight is to EAT ENOUGH CALORIES.... It's finally sunk into my rather slow brain(-:
After 20 years of searching for the 'perfect' emaciated body, ruining my health in the process and eventually ending up overweight and depressed from starving my body of essential fuel and nutrients, starving myself of life... Im ready to let go of the looser mentality.... being thin is defintely not everything!
After 'craving' to fast for a long time, I started a water fast on monday. By day 2 I had a sudden realisation - I truelly love myself - not in the 'up my own ass', ego centred way, but a deep sense of self acceptance and approval ...real true self love... (this may not seem like a big deal to some but with my past this is a HUGE deal to me!!!)
I realised that the real reason I wanted to fast if I was honest with my self, was to loose the weight I had gained and quickly!I was once again on the weight rollercoaster and this was gonna end NOW!the ride was OVER!! So I decided it was time to deal with the real issues that kept me in this self-destructive cylce, the issues of never feeling good enough or never truelly feeling loved, which goes back to be in my mothers womb and maybe further... and has effected my whole life - my relationship with my self, my family, my friends and the world around me....
It was time to let go of these self limiting,self obsessed, pathetic mind sets that have held me back in life and open up to the abundance of love all around me... Its time to allow myself to radiate with true health and happiness and reach the highest potential within me....
After this realisation I made the decision to break my fast on the eve on day 2 with a massive bunch of bananas and started day 1 of the NEW ME with loads of water and a massive bannana smoothie and guess what...some more bananas... BANANA ISLAND HERE I COME (-: Its time to listen to my body and GET ENOUGH CALORIES!!!
Who cares if a gain more weigh while my body relaxes, I know there's a radiantly healthy and fit body that will blossom.... Its time to live my truth and let go of the looser attitude(-:
Minimum of 3000calories, plenty of rest, loads of water, fresh air, sunshine, meditationa and exercise - HERE I COME!!!!!!
thanks so much for taking the time to read this - I needed to share my new found joy with someone (-: