I think I've gained 20 pounds. But I'm too scared to weight myself. I don't even look at my body in the mirror anymore. Shameful, I know. But I'm so embarrassed. I would never quit this lifestyle, it's taken me a super long time to get into it and learn from mistakes.
Hopefully I can start to loose weight soon.
My mom told me I eat too many calories and I'm rushing into it too fast. But I know that if I don't I will end up cheating or guilting myself into not eating later in the day, which might result in bingeing. All of which I'm too ashamed to admit to my mom.
She has been transitioning to this lifestyle as well, but she under eats by a lot and is loosing weight which is what I want to do.
It makes me sad and embarrassed.
I don't want to gain a bunch of weight and look like a fool to people who think I am dumb for doing this diet in the first place. (Even though they are idiots)
Unfortunately I live with a lot of people ( my older brothers and my cousin live here) and my mom has an in home business so there's always people visiting daily.
I'm more of an introvert and I wish I had more space to try out this lifestyle and get completely settled and be able to lose weight.
I know this kind of shallow but I'm just being honest.