I feel terrible today- yesterday I messed up and ate cooked foods. It all started when I was doing some research about my hormone imbalance issues on the internet- I must have read information for about 3 hours and was so sick of reading. Everything they said was different, your body needs dairy, your body needs organic meats, I even read that the raw diet causes the hormones to be more out of whack, which I do not believe to be true at all. Anyway, my health this year has really been going downhill, I have alot of stress on me with the house remodel and family issues/drama- something has got to change- sometimes I just want to leave everyone and everything behind, but I know that is not the right thing to do. I feel terrible and I'm pretty sure I have estrogen dominance and my skin looks bad- I feel like I'm aging fast, I feel so ugly- I used to be such a beautiful girl, I am still bloated, heavy, I am irritable and moody, depressed most of the time- it's like I'm a totally different person from last year- this morning I didn't even see a point to waking up-it's like what's the use? I am also stressed because I have no job, no money, no friends close-by, family doesn't call me- no one does, everything that I am going through and I feel so alone- I haven't shared with anyone the things I am going through because to me it's embarassing- why am I going through these hormone issues when I am so young? I am going to have to take very drastic measures to get myself better- the first thing I am going to do is pray today- I have been out of touch with God for a while now and that has really hurt me alot as well. I don't have enough fruits today to eat lots of fruits, but I am going to work with what I have. I just want to be MYSELF Again!!! Which is a happy, upbeat, outgoing, slim girl who loves being around people- right now I am turning into a recluse...I realize too that I need to quit talking about how I don't have any friends, a job, etc. because it just brings me down- I need to focus on the positive!
Here is my new plan of action:
Mono-meals of Fruit, Greens
Sauna/dry skin brushing
Think Positive- push out all negative
No sugar- use Stevia packets instead
Start calling people-talk to my family about what i am going through so I won't feel so alone..
And to focus on the Positive...
I have an awesome husband who has stuck by me through all of this craziness!! He's def. a keeper!
My husband is starting to look at our future house plans- getting ready to start designing our house!
The electricity part is finished in the bath remodel
The sunshine is peeking out today- I am going to go outside and do some deep breathing and soak up the sunshine!