I haven't been feeling that good this past week and I couldn't figure out why. I realized that I haven't been drinking 2 green smoothies everyday. Someday's I haven't even had one. It's crazy to me how much energy they give me and how much better I feel after having one. I need to stop being lazy, cleaning the blender doesn't even take a lot of energy. I just have so much school work right now I barely have time to prepare anything. I just grab banana's, apples, and things that I can eat super easily without having any dishes or mixing to do. It probably sounds like i'm making up excuses too but I have a ton of courses to finish on virtual school before the new year and i'm having a hard time with them. School is not my thing and I cant wait to be done with it so I can move on to experiencing and enjoying life rather than sitting on my computer all day identifying poems and reading about war. I actually enjoy school. I like learning about everything I possibly can because I feel like being knowledgeable on every subject possible is important but I think my issue might be that I love school too much. I spend to much time analyzing chapters that I personally find to be interesting and then I don't have time to do my other work. Back when I was still attending physical school I noticed that the "smart kids" or at least the kids with all A's didn't really care. They didn't have a passion to retain information and learn. They simply had amazing memories, good study habits and were good at concentrating and busy environments. I've only been eating low fat raw vegan for a little over 2 months now and i'm on medication for both add and anxiety which i'm not happy about. Eating like this has given me clarity of mind but I'm not quite at the point yet where I can concentrate and work with ease. I'm hoping that by summer i'll be able to take a short break from virtual school and get off of my medications because they're killing my liver. I don't understand why the prescribe things like this when they could simply tell someone to change their diet. I see a woman who specializes in vibration's and healing. When I first went to see her it all sounded like a load of crap and I was not excited but I later learned that the technology that she uses it what nasa uses to discover what planets are made of. I've become really close to that woman and she's honestly like family to me now. I loved that she didn't think I needed medication to function and she went further than what her specific practice was intended to do. She didn't just give you your cd with the frequencies on it and shoo you away, she talked to me about diet, and about going raw. About the universe and how humanity is killing itself. Without her I wouldn't have been able to convince my parents that going raw is what's best for me and i'd probably still be on a typical ed recovery plan drinking whole milk and eating pasta and bread at every meal.