4 months of being raw were amazing. Although I always felt bloated and my stomach was protesting me all the time. I know I haven't been doing this diet to the fullest (I didn't drink enough water, I didn't exercise, I didn't spent time outdoors, my fruits were not organic, in Lithuania there is no possibility to buy organic). One extreme thing happened for sure - I put my family to depression. My brother had to borrow my mom his money so she could buy me some fruit for lunch or dinner. My brother loves fruit but he can't eat them because I have to make my calories. My mom and dad got into a little debt in credit cards... I felt the pressure of always being raw but also I hurt my family very badly. I had no opportunity to find a job because I'm in my final year of university and I have to finish it with good grades. I couldn't focus on it though because I was always thinking where from to get more fruit for me. I felt egoistic towards my family to have all these expenses. It made me insane, I felt so guilty that my family has to work even harder just to make sure I have what to eat. Yesterday was a turning point. Me and my mom cried in the car once again going to buy some fruit. We didn't had any money anymore so she took her last money that she had put on for a jewelry that she wanted for three years. I felt such pain in my heart that she was talking about this peace for 3 years and now here I am to take her dream away just to feed myself for another week. I felt very bad, my chest pains started. And that was enough. Yes, I will always be a vegan but now I'll eat dried fruit, boiled potatoes and carrots, rice, other grains, corn. It was just too much for me to handle. It was a very beautiful dream and I loved being raw vegan but it's just not possible right now. We have a garden so when the summer comes, I will have our own grown vegetables and fruit so I'll be as much raw as possible, my heart is still with you guys, but just not all the time raw. I do believe in being raw, it makes so much sense to me, but not right now.
P.S. my blood test results came back but it was only for all of my blood and iron. Both of them are perfectly in the norm. :)
Have a good fruity lives!!! I wish you all the best!