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4 months of being raw were amazing. Although I always felt bloated and my stomach was protesting me all the time. I know I haven't been doing this diet to the fullest (I didn't drink enough water, I didn't exercise, I didn't spent time outdoors, my fruits were not organic, in Lithuania there is no possibility to buy organic). One extreme thing happened for sure - I put my family to depression.  My brother had to borrow my mom his money so she could buy me some fruit for lunch or dinner. My brother loves fruit but he can't eat them because I have to make my calories. My mom and dad got into a little debt in credit cards... I felt the pressure of always being raw but also I hurt my family very badly. I had no opportunity to find a job because I'm in my final year of university and I have to finish it with good grades. I couldn't focus on it though because I was always thinking where from to get more fruit for me. I felt egoistic towards my family to have all these expenses. It made me insane, I felt so guilty that my family has to work even harder just to make sure I have what to eat. Yesterday was a turning point. Me and my mom cried in the car once again going to buy some fruit. We didn't had any money anymore so she took her last money that she had put on for a jewelry that she wanted for three years. I felt such pain in my heart that she was talking about this peace for 3 years and now here I am to take her dream away just to feed myself for another week. I felt very bad, my chest pains started. And that was enough. Yes, I will always be a vegan but now I'll eat dried fruit, boiled potatoes and carrots, rice, other grains, corn. It was just too much for me to handle. It was a very beautiful dream and I loved being raw vegan but it's just not possible right now. We have a garden so when the summer comes, I will have our own grown vegetables and fruit so I'll be as much raw as possible, my heart is still with you guys, but just not all the time raw. I do believe in being raw, it makes so much sense to me, but not right now.

P.S. my blood test results came back but it was only for all of my blood and iron. Both of them are perfectly in the norm. :) 

Have a good fruity lives!!! I wish you all the best!

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Comment by fruity78 on April 7, 2012 at 10:31pm

Maybe i could deliver to you some yummy melons and oranges? They cost same $ as bag of potatoes in Gdansk:) I mean i wanna offer you and share.  I will be crossing Lithuania on tuesday , on the way to Tallinn where i am going to meet one raw-some not-yet-30bananas member..

It feels so sad you are short of money to get best what mother earth has to offer for our bodies..

Comment by Ruta Vaitiekute on March 15, 2012 at 11:17pm

Actually I have to say that eating grains and potatoes made me get up and do stuff! :D I'm bursting with energy, I run around everywhere :D I love it. 

Comment by Raini Pachak on March 15, 2012 at 11:10pm

Wow, your family sounds so loving and altruistic. What sacrifice!
Don't worry, you can still get strong and fit on potatoes and rice. You may not be bursting with energy but it'll make your return to fruit even more amazing.
Love. 

Comment by Ruta Vaitiekute on March 15, 2012 at 3:43pm

Thank you for your kind words :))) They truly are amazing.

Comment by ednshell on March 15, 2012 at 9:49am

I second what Prad said! :)

Comment by pradtf on March 15, 2012 at 5:46am

you have wonderful family ruta!

and your parents did just as well with their daughter!

in friendship,

prad

Comment by Ruta Vaitiekute on March 14, 2012 at 11:29pm

Thank you all for such an amazing wishes, I appreciate it. Now it's time to take my life back into my own hands. I feel like I regained control :) 

Comment by Glow on March 14, 2012 at 11:18pm

Don't worry Ruta, you can maybe go back to 100% raw when you are finished uni and got a good job :)

Comment by Ruta Vaitiekute on March 14, 2012 at 11:13pm

Melanie, that's what I do :)

Comment by Melanie Murphy on March 14, 2012 at 10:55pm

Don't go! Just base your diet on cooked vegan starches like Harley says...potatoes, rice etc! :) 

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