So yesterday I did not have nearly as much food as I thought I did. I only had enough orange juice to cover breakfast and greens for later on. I had no options. None of my bananas are near ripe nor could I access ripe ones, or ripe anything for that matter that was also organic- I'm extremely sensitive to pesticides and always have been so I don't even try with non-organic, sooo not worth the burning in my mouth and stomach pain, etc.
First, I tried to get my hands on some dried fruit. I found ~500kc worth of organic dried mango, no sugar added and a package of dried papaya. Liked the mango. I had never tried dried papaya before.. Turns out it's #$^%&%@ disgusting. Nothin but love for fresh papaya though, I have one ripening(not fast enough!!!) as I type this. Normally my other go-to would've been dates, but those are too rich for me to make a meal out of.
Then I got really discouraged. I'm four months into HCRV and I haven't had to eat cooked food once. Not once. I think I had one Japanese sweet potato in the beginning, I'm talking within the first 3 days so I barely count it. Even though DR says all the time that LFV cooked carbs are still fine to eat, I've had a really bad mental block against it. Maybe that's a remnant from my restrictive days- black and white thinking. That it's all raw or I am a failure. The lack of carbs was making me forget about what was important! So I made a mental list of all aspects of this lifestyle that I consider most important.
1)Vegan/Fair trade. No matter what I eat, it can't be something that caused harm to another being in any way, shape, or form.
2)Whole, unprocessed, organic. If it isn't all three I have trouble considering it food.
3)HC/LF. I function my best when I am full of good carbs. I feel, and therefore function, like @$$ when I eat any overt fat.
4)Raw. It's important to me to eat raw so that I obtain the full nutritional value of everything I consume.
Raw was literally last on my list! Another thing I could've put on the list is that it's important to me to eat enough. Like I said, restrictive past, so going one day without eating enough at this point is NOT an option. I would literally rather force down a package of frozen vegan mac n cheese than under eat for one day because out of all the things I could do to self-sabotage, I feel that under eating would be the worst.
So after considering all of that, it was fairly easy for me to reconcile eating potatoes. I mean they're toxic anyway in their raw state, so you gotta cook em! I even used a little organic ketchup. Only ingredients I had a problem with were salt and white vinegar but there wasn't a high amount of either and DR said in one of his videos he'd eat potatoes with ketchup and even rice with soy sauce(too big of a step for me haha) so again, easy for me to reconcile.
Bottom line- I had steamed potatoes with ketchup for dinner last night, in addition to several handfuls of baby spinach.
I didn't feel remotely sick or less-than-fantastic after eating, I felt 1000% better with some LFV carbs in me! And this morning? I feel just as premium as if I had stuck to a 100% HCRV day. No bloat from the sodium, which was my main concern. Also, given the good results, I feel proud of myself for successfully overcoming my first challenge as an HCRV.
Big thanks to the community, and Freelee/Durianrider especially, for all the great advice in the forums/blogs/videos!