I would like to say that I am detoxing in such a way after my fast of 21 days that it got me to question my fast in the first place. I am not going to say that I knew all about detox and what to really expect, because everyone is different and everyone detoxes and gets rid of toxins in their own time. Everyone's lifestyle is different and everyone has been through different diets and situations making their journeys unique.
I started getting doubts about my fast about 2 weeks after re feeding. I had a severe sore throat and a runny nose. I attributed it to leaving my re feeding early on the 3rd day and cold weather and most of all, I blamed myself for leaving the fast too early b/c my tongue was heavily coated. Even though I was set out to do 21 days and I did it! It was still my very first long term fast on water.
I thought, maybe I should have fasted another week or 2 and I had doubts about re feeding, until I watched a video from Frederic P. and he interviewed long term hygienists that made me feel a bit more relaxed about my decision.
He said that the body is capable of fasting for 3 weeks and it will continue to detox well after the fast. In fact the detox symptoms post fast could be even stronger than that of the fast itself (which explains why I never really felt that many symptoms during my fast)..In other words, the way the body works is , when the body has more nutrients one's body can have more assistance in helping the body get rid of toxins. That is my new understanding for what I am going through.
I was in serious depression with my detox post fast as it was not only a physical thing, it was also mental.. It all came on so strongly and it was so tough. As I got rid of poisons that were trapped for years, including anxiety and depression I began to want to slow it all down as it became so overwhelming at times. I began to eat some cooked foods..
Along with the cooked foods came a side order of guilt that went with it. My taste buds were not as freash anymore and I was craving more and more cooked foods which led me to over eat and feel bloated and add condiments. I am not going to say I was not tempted by other foods and b/c I was cleaner from my fast I was able to only eat fruits and veggies but I sure wish I had..I actually found in to be somewhat difficult. I live in a cold climate and it snowed so much it kept me very very cold and depressed. I found comfort (or so I thought in the kitchen cooking vegan fare)
I craved Meat at one point and was happy that I never gave into the cravings. I was very fatigued and it was also cramping my style, as I would always relieve my stress through running outdoors..That was not an option in the snow and ice for me. I am quite the spaz and I would have done more damage than the average girl. LOL
I found solace in knowing that I could always fast for 15-24 hours if I ate poorly, b/c fasting was safe for me. there was no food to trap in the bad food..there was no guilt attached to eating nothing.It was a way to clear my body of things that were not supposed to be there. I started to go back to my eating disordered days and that was starting to scare me,..It also didn't help that I was self sabotaging myself and all of my efforts were being destroyed..It was like being handed a beautiful gift and having to give it right back..My good health wand slimmer body were slipping away and all so rapidly...am proud to say, I am ending that dance with myself. It was getting to be too obsessive for my taste..Something I needed to break free of for fear of being sucked back into my old and bad ways of eating and my views of food that never served me well.
I am proud to say, I am going to just keep on the fruity and raw veggie trail and keep things going 811 style and just pick up where I left off. And if things don't always go as planned, I can always dust myself off again and start new at the very next meal! I have a choice..
I just happened to read a great quote today that resonated with what I was feeling....it was : "The first time I do something I am not happy with, it is a mistake, the second time it is a choice." Unknown I found that to be true in my case as well as so many people that seem to beat themselves up for doing something that felt so out of control. Things happen and we need to just keep learning how and why they do. We will be better off for it.
I am supplementing with D3 and B12 and my strength is returning and I am working out again..getting back into the swing of things and looking forward to my trip in Hawaii in a few weeks time is also helping a lot!
In conclusion, I would say that we all want to feel good and we all want that to happen right now, in fact ten minutes ago if you are like me..We all want to know when will our detox symptoms clear away and we can be part of the magic that the long tern pioneers that fasted and follow natural hygiene experience, but we are all on a different path and nobody no matter who the expert can say when it will end.
Detoxing could take years. The green mucus I am hacking up each day since I broke my fast is really something I should embrace, because in the end, I want to thank my body for doing exactly what it needs to do in the time that it does it. Better out than in, I aways say:) The fact that my body could actually get rid of stuff that has been there for years is something I could applaud. At times it gets tough, but like any race or any challenge I have faced over the years, I need to remind myself there is sunshine after every single storm!
To be continued......................................I hope!!!!