I'm feeling strange today and yesterday. The only thing I could say is that the L-tyrosine increase I've been taking, or the fact that my period should be here tomorrow. I just feel strange. I normally take L-tyrosine at about 100mg, but ran out and they only had 500mg. Since my depression could definitely see some improvement, I figured it would be helpful. It was sort of an experiement. The 5-HTP I take is heaven sent. Helps me sleep, feel calm and a sense of well-being. But, I still struggled with depression and particuarly, a lack of enjoyment in things I used to like (which I assume is dopamine related). So since the l-tyrosine helps create dopamine I figured if I increase it, I can feel more towards normal, or how I once did before I developed candida/chronic fatigue syndrome. I think the problem is that it also increases norepinephrine. ewwww... I guess I should either stop taking it, or decrease it back down quite a bit.
I would describe how I feel today as...
I'm in a different world
and its some how, coming to an end
I'm not in control of my life
not like myself
disconnected from others
and worried about my life
I've been on walks, listened to calming music and practiced deep breathing. In the end of the day, I am feeling a little crazy and nervous, but know that it would be much worse without those practices. I also know that these feelings will fade and I will feel more centered and sure again.
Also, I'm getting sick of bananas, but I dont know what else to eat that I can get those kind of calories at the price. I'm living off foods stamps, and organic foods are even hard to find around here.