ok, day 6. and done! i am done with banana island.
today, i felt good in general, but time to time the waves of tiredness/exhausted feeling came over me like previous days. but definitely better than las 5 days.
AND in the afternoon, i felt craving for vegetarian sushi again. but this time was a bit different. i REALLY wanted it. in other words, i started to feel, for the first time, that i did not want to eat bananas at all, but at all. i really did not want to eat any more bananas. no.
then i thought,
1. is this detox symptom?
2. should i keep going or quite?
3. maybe i am about to get something amazing out of detoxing....
4. but i feel that if i force myself to eat more bananas today and tomorrow, i may end up not liking bananas for a while if not for good.
5. but no pain, no gain. maybe i will loose weight and be more beautiful if i get over this part...
and THEN, i just thought...
THIS IS NOT MY OLD LIFE STYLE OF MAKING MYSELF DO HARD THINGS AND BE MISERABLE, BELIEVING THAT I CANNOT GET WHAT I WANT UNLESS I PUSH MYSELF SOOOOOOOO HARD TO BE STRONG...
so i decided to stop. and decided not to feel
oh... i did not do this for a week as i said i was going to...
it was FUN, Interesting experiment and i LOVE the results!
my skin is much better. my body feels strong. my shape is more.. how to say, leaner.
after having a big bowl of rice and natto and kimchee at home... i got out of the house to go and eat vegetarian sushi ...
and on the way to the restaurant, i felt so strong and so energised in a special way, that my body felt so much energy that i cannot NOT run. i ran there and stayed running for a while.
i never felt that "amazing energy" during my banana island as many of the people on youtube mentioned, but then, in the very last part, i could experience it!
i think i will do this again after being on this life style for another month or two. this time, my belly never stopped being super bloated.
finally, i want to thank freelee and tara from 40 below fruity. their faces popped up on my mind a lot. freelee always telling me to be patient. tara always ... not saying anything special, but having her face come up made me feel that i was not alone on this journey. and of course, i should thank my mom for always listening to me and thinking with me. super supportive! and i wanna thank this website for giving me the opportunity to put myself out there to connect with people.
done, done! done!