Last night, my dog that passed away a couple of weeks ago visited me in my dreams. She was so happy and healthy, just as I had known her for 14 years. There was nothing more I had wanted in my dream than to stay and enjoy her happiness with her forever. I awoke feeling very lonely and sad, but I have never felt before that what I am doing is so right until now.
I began my second day with 1 1/2 cups of raisins for a good 838 calories. I have been sitting inside my head a lot today. It's fascinating being able to fully feel the difference between hunger and cravings. I know when I'm full, but I still crave grains and breads heavily. I expected this, and I'm sure this will most likely continue for at least a month. I will peddle through it for Lilly, who is cheering me on in my heart forever. I will do it for my puppy, Aiden, who is my pride and joy. I will do it for my friends and family, whom I hope to inspire and spread my happiness through them. And, I will do it for my Mother, who has given me this amazing gift of life, abundance, and most importantly, the gift of choice. I choose life. I choose happiness. I choose nature.