I love eating all raw but I'm finding it hard to get in enough calories. I simply cannot afford to. On Saturday, after a heavy workout, I decided to add half a can of chickpeas to my evening salad to up my intake and it has completely screwed up my system again. It's now Monday night and I am still bloated and constipated from them. My forehead and chin even broke out again. I feel like I am back to day 1. It's kind of ridiculous.
I'm feeling rather frustrated with my body and how sensitive it is to absolutely everything. Even though I love eating all raw, this isn't actually what I want to do. I want to be able to be flexible and eat cooked dinners and go out to eat without my body completely freaking out on me. I have to keep reminding myself that healing is a process. After 10 years of having an eating disorder, it's unrealistic to expect my body to be healed in 9 months. I have to remind myself that, even if things are not where I'd like them to be, they ARE many times better than they were when I started. I am going in the right direction and that is all that I can do.