hello carb monsters!
I have been healing a lot. And it think im at the final stages of my healing. It is overall going very well. I am trying to listen to my body each day. I try to allow myself to become the person I really am. Trying to love myself and becoming the way I was meant to be.
Now I have come a long way. With all my health and mental problems. Some days are hard, most days are good!
I am back on raw till 4, hclf. I have been doing the fully raw for a while because I really felt ill after each starch or cooked things. But at some point my body started asking for my favorite foods. Potatoes, veggies, pasta. I was under eating also when trying to be raw all the time. It is just not very affordable for me or practical because I live in a cold climate. Nothing is ripe aaarh i cant wait till its melon and mango season again. Anyways I have learned many, for example I always try to get organic potatoes now. Conventional ones just give me problems. Maybe im sensitive but its just the way it is. Greens are organic as well and other then that I eat conventional fruit and veg most of the time.
Its going very well, I am having all my favorite vegan meals again. But keep it gluten free. Grains and beans I have not tried yet, they always give me terrible bowel pain, rashes and constipation. But whenever I have some snack with soy in it, it gives me a mild rash so that must mean I still cant have these foods. I would love to be able to have a plate of rice again one day, it is simply delicious food, comforting as well. But I've learned also that I must listen to my body not my ego. My body will give me all the right signs. But rice tortillas are ok , so maybe the rice will be too with some time.
Now its still wintertime and I eat some starches for lunch as well and hope to have some more fruit in the summer.
My dental problems are still not over. I have been such a fool, and depression has caused me many problems. I have neglected myself for a long time. Now I clean and floss after each meal and it feels so good. My cavities are being fixed by my organic dentist.
So overall life it good, my beloved potatoes are back in town and they are giving me the much needed energy I need to heal my trichotillomania.It is not even close to how bad it used to be. After healing trichophagia I'm sure I will heal this too. Digestion is getting better and Im trying to get a bit more exercise. I'd say I have around 2800-3000 calories now each day.
I 'm going to make youtube videos about my healing experience.
Lot's of love to you all.