Just realized I hit my 7-month marker a couple days ago and I AM SO EXCITED.
I want to thank everyone who has helped me along the way both here and on Instagram. I am daily motivated by all of you--even if I don't talk much, I am beaming inside.
Here are a few updates.
Start date: Oct 20, 2013 (Started with higher fat, only about 1800 cals back then)
Start weight: (ED induced) 122 pounds
Current date: May 23, 2014
Current weight: 135 pounds
I realized this week that since starting this lifestyle (7 months ago almost to the day!) this is the first time in my adult life that I have truly been "feeding" myself with real food.
So, truly, after multiple years of diet pills, compulsive exercize, laxatives, adderall, binge drinking, energy drinks, and mainly replacing food with coffee and then more alcohol, this is the first time in my life I have ever EVER consistently eaten any kind of healthy food, let alone low fat high carb vegan whole foods!
That is so, so crazy to think about! All my years spent as a "health nut" are completely negated by the fact that I did not truly practice any healthful habits, such as sugar, water, sleep. My idea of "health nut" until about a year ago was practicing obsessive, detrimental behaviors to keep my weight down.
Even as a lightweight rower in college, a professional horseback rider and competitor from 19-27--I never really fed myself properly! I remember my rowing team captains also worked for Red Bull--no wonder they were so hyped up all the time. They lived on Red Bulls!!
In short, it makes sense that I have gained about 15 pounds since starting this lifestyle. It might take me longer to lose the weight, but I am excited because I have truly happened upon the fountain of energy and enthusiasm.
For the past month I have been dedicated to eating as close to 3000 cals per day as I can. I recall that one video of Freelee talking about what to do if you want to lose more weight. She says "EAT MORE." So I am just eating more and more. What's incredible is that I am getting equally as hungry, if not more hungry, eating more and more food. I am just blown away by this: how adding about 800 calories to my daily intake can make me want more and more food.
Hoping this is the metabolism revving up!
Here is my usual food intake on any given day:
1000 ml water before breakfast
I make huge smoothies to take to work and drink all day, totals look like this:
2500 g frozen and fresh bananas + 2200 ml water + 15 TBSP coconut sugar = 2775 cals
Huge salad for dinner: cos lettuce, red cabbage, sprouts, red peppers, with dressing of 1 TBSP tahini, lemon juice, onion, garlic, and half zucchini = about 300 cals
Fruity popsicles after dinner if I feel like it (about 160 cals)
I attempt to do all raw most days--but if I still want more food after the salad I eat cooked carbs (rice noodles with coriander or steamed potatoes with cos). AMAAZINGGG
My calories are usually well over 3000, and close to 3700 if I eat more after the salad.
--I wish I had upped my calories sooner--but I also didn't really have the capacity to eat that much until recently.
--I have some days with ED thoughts--but they don't ever win. Usually it has to do with overt fat avoidance, but I have realized that eating more and more bananas allows me to have overt fats some nights and still keep a 955 ratio (which is where I am happiest).
--I am walking about 3 miles every other day. I find I feel better once I start exercising, but getting started is still difficult. I listen to Freelee who says, "don't think about it too hard," and I also think about my favorite wildman ultra runner cousin who says, "GET INTO IT" like a demon.
--Sometimes I still feel like I am "doing something wrong" because I struggle with bloating and low energy on some days. Cutting WAY back on added sodium, like soy sauce, about two weeks ago has helped.
--I am struggling with dandruff (still!) and I have developed some sort of peeling on my palms. I rub it with olive oil and sometimes coconut oil, but both palms are very itchy and peely. I am not too concerned.
--Overall, I feel amazing. Really excited to see what the future holds. I am starting to go to the track (I ran track in high school and loved it!) and want to begin improving my mile time (which is embarrassing at the moment). My longterm fitness goal is to beat my high school mile time of 6:11.
SOME DAY, PEEPERS, SOME DAY!!
LOTS OF LOVE AND GRATITUDE TO YOU ALL--