This is something I recently starting sharing. I have kept this a well hidden secret from almost everyone I know, including my family. I
decided it was time to open up and tell people about my struggle with
schizophrenia and mental illness that has plagued me since I was 12
Starting at the age of 12 I have suffered from severe depression and in my late teens I started hearing voices. I never told anyone about
this due to fear of being institutionalized. I saw how people suffering
from schizophrenia were treated and medicated into a zombie state and I
didn't want that. Instead I told people I was depressed, which was also
true and I was medicated for that. Which didn't help my depression or
schizophrenia for very long, but it did make me not feel or care about
my condition. I was medicated for 10 years until 4 years ago when I had
my gal bladder removed, which at that time I figured my gal bladder was
why I had also been feeling physically sick most of my life. After it
was removed I felt even sicker and through determination to survive I
found raw food. Raw food was a huge change from the fast food diet that I
had grown up eating. I did manage to switch over and I felt great, at
that time with the knowledge I had I was eating strictly fruit. Also
when I started raw food I weighed 250 lbs and I lost 120lbs in the
process. Not only did I feel great but my depression and schizophrenia
disappeared and I quit taking the medication (that was 3 months of
horrible drug with-drawls). A few months after going raw I was
introduced to other raw food people and raw gourmet . I thought that was
great. I could eat all these foods that tasted like my old foods and it
was good for me...ha...or so I thought. After 3 months of raw gourmet
the voices started to come back in full swing. It was about that time
when I met Michele and she told me about 80/10/10. I read the book and
knew that it was right on. I switched to lfrv and the voices were gone
again. I was having trouble though, in giving up the raw potlucks. I
really liked the connection with other people and sharing food together.
So I went to a raw potluck, fell for the temptation and ate a bunch of
raw gourmet food. I figured once in a while it was ok. Well, that
evening the voices in my head were screaming at me in full force and I
ended up banging my head on the wall over and over screaming back at the
voices. I gave myself two black eyes and knocked myself out. My 8 year
old daughter had been home at the time and slept through this all in her
room, while my boyfriend at that time knew about my schizophrenia checked on my daughter while I was going through this
to make sure she was ok. The next morning my boyfriend got scared and
called the ambulance because when I was blacked out it looked as if I
was having seizures. The police and ambulance came and took me to the
hospital and institutionalized me for 24 hours. They also took my
daughter into state custody.
I wrote about that situation on here at that time, though I didn't mention that I had schizophrenia.
That was a big wake up call. I needed to keep myself healthy or I would be put away for a long time and ruin not only my life but my daughters as well.
I did get a lawyer and $8,000 dollars later got my daughter back.
That was 2 years ago. Since then I have never had the voices come back that strongly, though they have come back on occasion when I
strayed. These are the foods that trigger the voices. I have not had
meat but I'm sure it is one of those as well.
Fats are the very very worst. When I over eat fats the voices literally scream at me.
There are other foods that do not trigger the voices but cause me to be sedentary and depressed
also..smoking marijuana (which I used to self medicate for years)
I am so grateful to know that I have control over my mental illness. I am able to live with my brain fully functional, with beautiful clear
thoughts. They say schizophrenia can never be cured, but I am living
proof that it can and bad food is the cause...good food is the cure.
When I follow 80/10/10 perfectly then I never ever hear a whisper in my
head, my mind is all mine :)
I am interested to know other peoples stories in dealing with mental illness, because eating bad food not only causes me to have physical
problems but mental problems which isn't talked about very much. I want
to address the mental problems caused by food.
Glad this helped you Monica. If you have any questions feel free to ask. I am sure with this lifestyle you will be able to be off all medications and have a beautiful clear mind :)
Have you seen the video Durian rider did with me?That has my story as well.
it is very scary getting off medication. I went crazy just getting the things out of my system from withdrawls. I have been off for 4 years now and no episodes other than when I eat certain foods, but even then I know it is temporary :)
for sure if I overeat fats, but also if I eat bread.
Thanks for sharing your beautiful story. It is very inspiring and ca give hope to the sufferers of mental illness. It's very encouraging to see that one can improve by changing the diet.
Just to say, Amazing in all aspects!
I'm very interested in one thing, if you have the kindness to answer.
What is a typical day for you?
The food you eat a long the day, and the amounts?