Hello, I hope I can meet people who have the same background as me, as I feel extremely isolated!
Background: ED started with calorie restriction, obsessive calorie tracking via myfitnesspal, ended up at 95 pounds at 5'5"
Gained some weight back and reverted to bulimia, which I struggle with to this day. I sometimes use alcohol to cope. I don't really binge and purge, I just eat too much and purge. However, mentally, it still feels like a large calorie binge.
I am probably at 137 now and I am extremely uncomfortable. I've been vegan for 3 years so imbibing in animal products isn't a problem. The problem is that my husband is a snack fiend and loves pizza, chips, and ice cream (he is vegan as well) I also really love baking sweets :c
I already eat close to a HC RT4 besides when I slip up with eating chips and other unheathy foods (edit). I eat a lot of bananas, brown rice, sweet potatoes, lentils, beans, and greens. I can drink 1.5L of water a day and I am working on drinking more. I used to drink absolutely no water at all for years!
I am afraid to get into the habit of tracking my calories again because this was a big pillar in my restriction days
I do go to therapy for my ED, depression and self harm. I unfortunately cannot work out too much because of my tachycardia and ehler-danlos syndrom, but I am working on using Wii Fit U for Yoga and light cardio.
I need help healing, I really want to leave this ED behind, work on my self-image, and no longer fell tempted by snacks and over-eating. I need to feel a sense of community and maybe friendship, I believe this will help me stay srong. Has anyone come from the same background, is their any specific RT4 meal plan I should follow?
I generally eat blended frozen bananas with flax seed and sometimes raisins for breakfast and lunch, then some sort of salad with edamame beans and sweet potatoes. I snack in between with bananas and raisins. I am boring and I can eat the same thing everyday forever. I still need to learn more about food combining and the High Carb Raw till 4 lifestyle!
Thank you for the encouraging message!
Sometimes I eat a cooked lunch just to break of the bananas. I really do wish to be full Rt4 on the grounds that the community is amazing and so is the food <3
I just need to remind myself that whole foods make me happy and junk food does not, old habits die hard :P