I'm ashamed to admit (But won't let myself backdown) that I havn't been 100% raw, nor even fitting in with 80/10/10. While the majority of my meals are ether all bananas, pears, mellon, or salad (sadly topped with salsa, although at least it's not a traditional dressing of some sort) I have still ocasionaly given in to vegan tacos, pancakes, or other highly processed foods as well as soda.
I've only backpedaled to fish a few times, and never back to any other meats, and cheese only a handful of times, however even if it had all been vegan I would still feel guilt over it as I know from experience that when I give in to these foods I feel like sh** and I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
The reason I'm starting this progress report is I've gained more knowledge on why we crave certain things and have come up with a few reasons why I keep caving into this trap.
1. My wife and family still eat "regular" diets, and belive they are doing the right thing by keeping around vegitarian and vegan foods that mimic foods they eat on a regular basis.
I know they do this out of love and concern for me, however the fact that bad choices are always around makes it more difficult to give them up in favor of good choices. It's also hard to say no when they cook a large meal of stuff that, while vegan, is not 80/10/10 aproved.
2. Habit and tradition. The foods I give into ether are, or closly mimic foods I've eaten for all but the very end of the 28 years I've lived on this planet. It's stop a habit that i've participated in for the all my life, especualy when everyone around me is enabling me.
3. I've come to realize that while my cravings are also caused due to my past depression and extream bullying during high school. Essentualy like many with emotional issues I began to associate food with comfort and love and I never realized that I was still using food as a means to fofill those emotional needs (along with video games but that's another issue).
Due to these realizations, and another backpedal into pancakes which, along with a day at work which was exceptionaly labor intensive, left me so sore that I bairly want to move.
I will repeat a saying that I'm sure many have said here time and time again.
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I've got a full case of bananas that have just gotten spots.
I've got supplementary fruits in the way of watermelon and pears.
I'm not turning back.
I'm not backpedaling anymore.
Starting tomarrow it's only going to be fruits untill I can safely say I don't crave soda, and processed food, at which point I will add in greens. I'm going to take shirtless "Progress photoes" to motivate myself, and ether tomarrow, or on one of my upcoming days off I'm going to go out and get a tattoo to act as a constant reminder of my desire to finaly acheave real health.
I want to be able to run down the street without feeling like I killed myself, and above all else I want to be able to look at my life and see somthing other then a lazy putz who never acomplished sh**.
This post may have come off as agressive, and thats becouse I feel like I need to be agressive with myself right now or else I won't progress. I also feel the need to write it down, to give it some permanancy as well as witnesses so that I can't back down.
Went to the doctors for a check up and was informed that my blood pressure is 107 over 85, which is down from 130 over 105 where I was last time I had a check up. Also my beats per min at rest is 75. The average resting beats per min is 90, which means my heart is strong enough that it takes less beats per min to ciurculate my blood.
In other words my heart is that much healthier then it was before my diet change.
At work I am now known plant wide (over 250 people work here during varius shifts) as the Banana guy.