I've been hclf raw til4 vegan for a while now. Since November so about 4 months now. I thought I lost 5 pounds in the beginning but I'm the exact same weight.
Health is my life. I love it. Studying it, thinking about it, researching it. But I've developed a weird obsession. I love to read watch or know about stuff but it's harder to put it into practice.
I have had, and continue to have to a smaller degree, a bad relationship with food. I didn't think I had an eating disorder but I guess I did. More of body dysmorphia though.
I'm getting better at following the guidelines about calories sleep and water. But it is really hard to know when you're obsessing too much and or just trying to do it perfectly. I've been very lax with myself about eating out, decaf coffees and overt fats here and there. Not a lot.Just enough to ... I guess prove that I'm not obsessing.
The problem is that I'm not losing any weight. I feel great now and I want everyone else to as well but I'm not being an example and I want to move on to the losing part.
Is it because Of my lack of strictness?
I also just recently started exercising. Is that it?
I don't know what to do and looking at myself in the mirror makes me depressed sometimes when I see the cellulite and misshapen thighs....
Help. I just want to be thin already. I've never been thin in my life and I want to stop thinking about it.
Also, I can't seem to get good recipes.. or make them well. And I'm left with bland dinners that make me want to quit.
I'm not on birth control and haven't used that many stimulants in the past. Only coffee and tea on occasion. My school has buildings for each subject so I get to walk outside for 4 minutes every 1.5 hours plus lunch and we have a break so I'm walking as much as I can during school.
My sodium level is probably higher than it needs to be but it is extremely difficult to eat low sodium. I buy low sodium sauces now but I always feel like I'm retaining water... If I drink more than 4 litres of water a day (that's where I am at now) will it help flush out the extra salt and water retention you think?
You're so right. So right. Thank you so much. I will try that. I just need to get some stuff in order first. You, and all the people who have replied, have, and are helping me realize so much about myself already.
Thank you again. It's just what I needed to hear.