May be your jeans are a size too tight?
I refuse to wear anything that restricts my skin and blood flow no matter how fashionable it is.
I know a lot of jeans are stiff and or tight. May be stick to slacks and trousers, or loose shorts.
edit here, you look female in your pics, so taking a chance here, skirts and dresses are good options too, especially in summer when we are in the sweat/evaporate/cook off cycle.
I forgot to beside refusal to wear tight things, I have a kidney issue that sometimes causes swelling and or yes, my back and kidney do not like the pressure.
Sometimes, we have to do what is best for us whether family and friends like it or not.
But that is what we are here for. Many of us are changing our lives day by day, and many of the people in our lives do not like it.
Some of them might be jealous ie you lost weight and they did not. Or our activism, whether promoting a healthy diet or promoting animal rights issues, makes them uncomfortable. Our activism disturbs their sleep. LOL.
What diet are you eating? High raw or RT4?
In some sensitive individuals, starchy foods and the insulin release cycle can cause people to hang on to belly fat because insulin opens fat cells too. May be focus more on raw fruits n lettuce greens and simple carbohydrates.
Also try toning exercise like belly dance, yoga (which it seems you might be doing) or martial arts. These exercises will tone and tighten.
But while exercising muscle prefers to burn glucose.
When resting, muscle prefers to use fat. So continue to get your 8-12 hours of resting, even if just lying flat and not sleeping.
If you prefer to do exercise at home for whatever reason, there are also a lot of belly dance dvds too.
If you do decide to go fully/highly raw, the following might help:
99-100% Raw Long Term Success
Eat a raw frugivorous diet where most carbohydrates and calories come from whole, raw, ripe, sweet, and juicy fruits like oranges, papaya, or mangoes, supplemented with about ½-2 heads of lettuce greens a day ,(not high oxalate veggies like kale, chard, and spinach), and about a handful of raw nuts or seeds a day. Eat simple meals (like mono meals, or only use a few ingredients) but a rainbow of foods over a period of time.
Eat enough on a daily basis with at least 2500 calories for females and at least 3000 calories for males. Drink 8 or more cups of water a day and pee clear. Get 8-12 hours of sleep as needed. Exercise about 30 minutes a day 5-6 days a week with at least one day off for rest and repairs. Get about 30 minutes of sunshine a day on your skin for vitamin D, mental health, eye health, and healthy bones and teeth.
For more science behind how a raw foods diet optimally for long term success:
Message me some pics!!!
1/2 joking I don't come to this website, or go online for that sort of thing...
Wait....what does any of this have to do with feeling disgusted with yourself???
The problem is relying on willpower in the first place.
Reorganize everything so that your desired outcome does not depend on your mood, willpower, or whether you can "be mentally stronger"...make whatever you are trying to do the easiest path to take...
What type of work do you do?