Sooooo, today marks week 7 of my high carb journey, not 100% raw, cut out rice 3 weeks ago, have been eating steamed potatoes regularly in the evening (best quality local organic/home grown) none the less they are bloating me out, so I'm going to try and cut them out as I know they are not meant to be a transitional tool.
I have had NO overt fat for the past 7 weeks, not so much as a,pine cernal in sight, freelee & DR did this for 2 yrs solid??
Anyway, I've been reading that fats help regulate hormones, I've been totally out of whack for months now, I have been cramming in the calories, aiming for 3000 a day I'm 21, 5'4" @ 147lbsish. I am doing yoga, walking, occasional jogging, cycling etc.. All moderates I've been dealing with image related social anxiety for a number of years now, I've put on 14lbs in the past few months, detoxing in my face. It's got to the point where I can't look at people in the eye, or even talk propperly sometimes.. This is getting really hard for me as every step I take in the right direction seems to take me further away fromy peers and social inclusion. My moods are all over the place...
Geez. I want to hug you and say it's ok. Here's my two cents, if you want them.
One thing you need to recognize is that the feelings you're feeling stem from thoughts you have about yourself. Ok, that sounds really obvious, right? Of course. Now recognize thoughts are like weather in your head. When we're depressed, we see a certain cloud in the sky of thoughts and decide that's the true cloud. That cloud is the one I'm going to focus on. That feeds the cloud, and we can't see any other clouds in the sky.
The only thing that has ever, ever helped depression for me is caring about other people. I'm not saying you should buck up because there kids starving in Africa. I'm saying you need to stop focusing on the clouds you're seeing that say, "I'm fat," or "I'm ugly." You can't just tell your brain to stop. That will never, EVER work. That's like telling the winds to stop blowing. But what you can do is try to focus on other clouds. Invest some time asking your mother (or really anyone in your life) how she feels and what you could do to make her life a little better this week. Pay strangers compliments on the street. Ask if you can help your friends more with a project. Propose a project with friends. Join a board game group and ask if you can help organize their next meeting. Just little things to start. You can even just sent nice postcards to friends you know would appreciate them.
Here is a video of one of my favorite speakers, Lama Marut, who talks about happiness and feeling better: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQdYUMywnl8
He's a bit tough love when it comes to Buddhist thought, but he's a good intro.
Lyra Donnelly you are beautiful on the inside and out. We all love here even if you do not. Learn to take care of yourself. Get enough food in you, go to bed early, learn to relax, and realize that your negative feelings wont last. i realise that when I feel crap, I realize this is a passing moment and if i provide myself with the proper health that its easy to be happier. im underslept right now and feeling crappy how you feel but i realize this will go away once i get back to going to bed early again
It is like you said - you KNOW that it is detox. But how about letting your mind rest in a place of NOT knowing for a while?
It took me a whole year of sorting out emotions and going trough horrible physical transformations from the time I first got really sick. And I am not nearly done transforming into whatever it is that I am supposed to become. I am still a work in progress, but I am not trying to manouvre everything and correcting little things that play no part in where I will end up.
Today I am still experiencing some of the symotoms but I do not "battle" them like I used to. To give in is not to give up. The only way to affect life without working against the stream is to let go. Only then will it take you where you were meant to go. When you stop fighting a war against something that you are building up yourself inside your mind there will be peace. But know that you do not need to know how to get there. There is no right or wrong way and it is not even your business to get there, it is the Universes business.
You have worries that seem to be taking up all the space in your world, but remember that you are a child of the Universe. Everything is always in constant change and movement. Whatever is happening in your world in particular - it is OK. It will always be OK.