Hey awesome fruity peeps,
I decided to post in "Meet and Greet" because I've been away from the site for many months, have fallen pretty far off track in that time, and have gone through some significant changes (approach and attitude) - and I feel almost like I'm starting back at square one - so... it just seemed appropriate that I re-introduce myself.
And, I changed my screen name from "Fruit Fly" to Hummingbird because there is another woman on here going by "Fruitfly" and I thought it would get confusing. :)
A little background: I first joined 30BaD in June '11, and experienced an amazing first 2 months following the guidelines. I was eating 100% 80/10/10 high-cal, getting exercise and water, and feeling relatively amazing (compared to how I have been feeling over the past several years of eating disorder roller coasters and their various physical side effects.)
I also started to gain weight... I freaked out a little and backed off the calories, then went through 6 months of undereating, dabbling in cooked foods and feeling worse and worse. I was also noticing symptoms I've had for years continuing and finally decided to see a professional.
Around March a Chinese Medicine doctor explained that I had an exhausted spleen from the 12 years of bulimia and compulsive exercise I had put myself through. And that I needed to rebuild in a big way...
Since March I have been struggling to get back onto high calorie 811 - but without support it has been... not quite happening.
So I hope to get more amazing support from this community like I did the first time around. Even with the support, it could be hard. I have been pushing and pulling with this lifestyle for an entire year now. I am about 30 lbs overweight on a 5' frame. I still experience the spleen symptoms big time (mostly fatigue and mental fog).
The good thing is, I have dropped a TON of emotional baggage about weight and appearance. I am getting more and more how there is really only one way to health and happiness, which is to just do the footwork and EAT FRUIT, and that cutting corners just postpones that eventual achievement.
I'm really excited to be back, and of course... so grateful for all the wonderful people here who inspire me.