it gets a bit unbearable at times. to feel like you are being labeled certifiably crazy while you look upon the world and see the most atrocious holocaust being perpetrated by your dearest loved ones. it makes me so incredibly sad, and I can't talk about it with anyone in my immediate life because none of them get it. i am lucky enough to have many many lovely family members and friends who support me, respect my lifestyle, know how much it has helped me, but i just get a bit tired of having a friend listen and nod along in genuine understanding and empathy and then go eat some cheesy something or other. it's almost worse than the seething defensive carnist who dismisses you completely. almost, but not really. I try to remind myself that they are in the process of waking up if they are not defensive and feel something for animals, even if that realization hasn't carried over to their food choices.
This is the greatest heartbreak i have ever endured, and it's a daily dull (but sometimes not so dull) ache in deepest depths of my being.
if i feel so much pain from those around me unconsciously acting counter to their morals, then how could i possibly give my heart to one who does the same without my soul being completely shattered?