Trying to get back on the wagon

So of course after about 8 days of 801010 i started 'talking' to someone which means going out for food. most of the time it would be after work where i haven't eaten in HOURS so i am most vulnerable. for about a week and a half to two weeks i fell wayyyy off the wagon...mostly eating chocolate any chance i got. still not eating much meat (I'll admit i did have coconut shrimp twice that week :( ) but my bloating  and gas surprisingly didnt affect me....

i was still trying to incorporate as much raw fruit and veg as possible but not really limiting myself.

the 801010 diet book came in the mail 2 days ago so starting yesterday i went back to 100% HCLF raw vegan...or so i tried.

yesterday was i followed it to a t

today i started well but crash and burned after work. i went home fully intending to have a salad when i saw chocolate chip peanutbutter cookies on the counter....i saw red and ate 3 of them without thinking (thank you roommates)

now i feel awful for undoing all that ive been doing. i'm so tired of the bloating and the 'death' farts and slight fatigue and lost money that i've accumulated just from these 2 days of this diet...sometimes I want to throw in the towel feeling like it's causing more problems than its worth :(

Has anyone else experienced anything like this? I'm starting to feel so unmotivated and discouraged :((