Ugh! I had a business meeting last night and I had a glass of chardonnay. I feel awful today! I definitely don't feel like running! I haven't had an off day since Sunday so I feel like I could take today off but I'm actually getting so into running that it makes me feel sad to miss it! I'm doing great! I've been doing 5k + per day but I'm shooting for 5 miles or maybe 10k per day. I love it! I have such a beautiful place to run now and it's been great. It's already very cold out in the mornings so I hope I can keep it up as the winter approaches.
My eating has been great. I'm eating more and more every day and I seem to be getting in better shape as I do. I do contribute most of this to the running, however. How wonderful to run for the first time in my life! I can do it! The reason I'm shooting for 5 miles a day particularly is because I remember clearly feeling that 5 miles sounded like an amount that I could never run every day. I went so many years only being able to run about 1/4 a mile. Even two weeks ago I could only run 1/4 of a mile! This is so exciting!!
I feel a lot of pressure, though. The business meeting was in relation to a film that is shooting here in town over the next few months. I auditioned for the female lead on a whim and now it's down to me and one other actress! I haven't acted in years, mainly I've been concentrating on my music, writing and raw food making so it's been really exciting. I got to run through a lot of emotions during the audition and it was really fun. I've been in a wonderful mood ever since!
The reason I bring this up is because I do feel this pressure to be perfect, especially because I'm one of the last contenders for the role now. Not to mention, there's always a lot of pressure on the female lead to be universally attractive and likable. I used to only go for the best friend roles, because there was no pressure but I guess I'm doing this now!
Also I'm drinking mate--probably not the best idea but I am sort of over being perfect at the moment. I'm eating my bananas anyway!