The Business Cocktail

Ugh!   I had a business meeting last night and I had a glass of chardonnay.  I feel awful today!   I definitely don't feel like running!   I haven't had an off day since Sunday so I feel like I could take today off but I'm actually getting so into running that it makes me feel sad to miss it!    I'm doing great!  I've been doing 5k + per day but I'm shooting for 5 miles or maybe 10k per day.    I love it!   I have such a beautiful place to run now and it's been great.   It's already very cold out in the mornings so I hope I can keep it up as the winter approaches.

My eating has been great.  I'm eating more and more every day and I seem to be getting in better shape as I do.   I do contribute most of this to the running, however.    How wonderful to run for the first time in my life!  I can do it!   The reason I'm shooting for 5 miles a day particularly is because I remember clearly feeling that 5 miles sounded like an amount that I could never run every day.    I went so many years only being able to run about 1/4 a mile.   Even two weeks ago I could only run 1/4 of a mile!    This is so exciting!!

I feel a lot of pressure, though.   The business meeting was in relation to a film that is shooting here in town over the next few months.   I auditioned for the female lead on a whim and now it's down to me and one other actress!   I haven't acted in years, mainly I've been concentrating on my music, writing and raw food making so it's been really exciting.     I got to run through a lot of emotions during the audition and it was really fun.   I've been in a wonderful mood ever since!

The reason I bring this up is because I do feel this pressure to be perfect, especially because I'm one of the last contenders for the role now.    Not to mention, there's always a lot of pressure on the female lead to be universally attractive and likable.    I used to only go for the best friend roles, because there was no pressure but I guess I'm doing this now!

Also I'm drinking mate--probably not the best idea but I am sort of over being perfect at the moment.   I'm eating my bananas anyway!