since starting to move towards the 80/10/10 lifestyle, i've noticed my need to 'fit in' gradually diminish. i haven't taken a strict approach, i typically eat 80/10/10 at home or outside of social situations, but when i'm with others, out to dinner for example, i've maintained that having a cooked vegan, or even vegetarian meal is okay.
in allowing myself that freedom, i'm beginning to find, paradoxically, that it's not freeing at all! the longer i eat 80/10/10, the better i feel, and the harsher the repercussions seem to be from eating SAD food. last night, for example, i went out to dinner with some friends, and there were two veg options on the menu- a creamy pasta, and a pizza. i opted for the pizza (which was covered in cheese- and i feel gross thinking about now), and immediately after felt sedated, and basically ready to go home and have a snooze. this was coupled with a weird emotional response (i was tired admittedly). i got home and burst into tears, had a stomach ache, woke up with a stomach ache.. and still have a stomach ache!
i can't say i was even excited about eating the pizza, it's more a convenience issue- i'm living away from home at the moment in a small country town with people i've only just met, and i didn't want them to find my diet weird. but i'm beginning to get past that i think, i definitely can no longer order cheesy, fatty foods like pizza, i feel sick just thinking about it! i feel myself moving closer to accepting that this is the diet for me, and if people think i'm weird then that's fine, or whatever. the closer you get to true health, the more your body seems to protest if you do anything that contradicts it's newfound state. a good lesson to learn!