My list of everything that is wrong with me on a sad diet

My weight is 127kgs.
I have diabetes type II at a stage where sugar levels are taking their time coming back down. I am diet and exercise controled, no meds yet. I was diagnosed in september 2011.
I have just had two very stylish falls on wet floors and really messed up my body e.g. Back pain, pain on all pelvic area, pain on right thigh at hip level, and pain on right knee as well as left ankle. Pain on neck and nose (no i did not land on my nose, and i cant quite explain that one except to say everything is related). I am seeing an osteopath every month although after these falls it might become every two weeks.
I have a permanent hangover feeling which never leaves where i almost have a headache all day and feel foggy all day.
I am generally very irritable, with quite a bit of low self esteem and at the moment i dont like how much negative energy i bring to people around me (the best evidence of that is how i complain when i am driving about mistakes and dangers other drivers create. When i will be able to drive and ignore it all, i will be on the veryright tracks).
I believe i feel very weak and that makes me feel very vulnerable and scared, which then brings out that negative personality in me as a way of self preserving.
My digestionis really poor. I have acid reflux at night. I always have either diarrhea or am constipated. Iam sure i have dairy and glutten intolerances.
My nose feels swollen from the inside and it gets hard to breath through it so i mainly breath through my mouth.
I get terrible cramps on my legs mainly, very regularly, sometimes on both sides of my leg at the same time (thats a great way to freak out your loved ones because you so dont know what to do to make it better that you scream and cry bloody murder at which point my husband was ready to call 999 and i was so in pain i couldnt explain to him that it was nothing all i could tell him was dont... Worry... Its ok... In between screams and cries lol). I generally find my muscles are very often incredibly tensed, even when i am only simply sitting on a chair.
My hair, which i have only now started to grow after keeping it very short for years, is incredibly dry.
Faint hearted look away now, i have too much discharge from my ears, and i have a bit of tinnitus.
I am totally hooked on sugar and ultra dense foods, pasta being my favourite only because i feel the need to be strong inside, to feel stable and unbreakable because who knows what i am going to have to face today.
I have problems with my teeth: receiding gums, which also bleed very easily and every time i floss for sure. I have lots of feelings but they are not in such a good shape anymore. And i have a few cavities.
I am short sighted and my vision goes down year after year. And as well as the blur from shortsightedness, my eyes are also foggy and sometimes i will have to blink several times to see clear again.and i know this is food related because on the occasions that i was very raw in the past (around 80%) for a certain duration e.g. A week, this would go away and i could see clearer.
I want to wake up in the morning and not feel like i need another nights sleep. I want to be able to fall and not hurt myself so bad because i wouldnt be so overweight anymore. I want to feel thst i can run 20 miles to get help, pick up trees and fight angry animals/ humans, that i would be strong enough and resilient enough for all that. I want to feel light and think and see clearly. I want t o be able to keep up with doing yoga and taiji at home and going to the gym everyday. I want to get rid of that diabetes.
And a little piece of me, no no, a big piece of me wants people to go WOAW! When i next go down to France this summer to visit my family and friends. I am french and i only go down once a year and i want them all to be well shoked and then ask how. So that i can tell them it is thanks to my hard work of course, but mostly, ITS ALL IN THE FRUIT!!! Lol that would be fantadtic.
Simply put i dont want my body to be a jail sentece anymore, with a possible death penalty at the end. No more of this.
I cant wait where this journey is gonna take me, and thank you so much for this site. I have been looking into raw food into years and only one day and i found such great ideas here like this list of unwellness and the fight or flight need of our body and the idea to build up the stamina and strength to accomodate for it. And of course what wonderful people are here sharing their experiences. It is so refreshing and inspiring, so thatnk you everybody.