Kind of sad and stressed, but happy at the same time..

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Comment by Craig Plunkett on September 21, 2012 at 1:28am

It's because you desire security. The desire to be secure and the feeling of insecurity are the same thing you see - if you try to be secure you will just feel insecure. You are assuming the lack of security in the very desire to be secure. To try to control the thing that's controlling is to already assume that you're not in control.

There is a larger 'you' than that self-conscious reflexive 'I' who you would " try to make happy", "make secure" or somehow assure something like a "certainty" for.

To look for it is to already suggest that it hasn't been found . The person who is fearful of the uncertainty is smuggling in the unquestioned assumption that there could be someone there who could be 'secured' who would be outside the flow of time.

The more than one clings to the idea of 'self' regardless of experience, the more that this problem gets magnified.

Comment by Ramona Mi on September 20, 2012 at 9:26pm

Hey Brandon,

I can understand you very well. I know this feeling of beeing unhappy without a clear reason. And I am living in a flat who is too expensive (at the beginning, it wasn't, but I have started a new school and can just work 40 % now) and I am stressed about finding something cheaper.

This unhappy feeling is always with the question "for what all this sh...? There isn't any sense." 

But there is also a big trust in me, that everything will be good, and after every down comes a high. So be strong and wild and free and be sure, that something phantastic is on the way to you :-) There are a lot of beautiful things in our life, nature, the love of a family...and you are not alone! 

Love and greetings,

Ramona

Comment by Brandon Schaefer on September 20, 2012 at 9:43am

I know what you're saying, but what I had posted dealt really little with my diet.. I don't emotional eat or anything like that, and I'm not really struggling with eating/staying on this diet. I was just talking more in general. Thanks for the advice, I do have hobbies outside of school and eating haha, I do a lot of different things, painting, playing guitar/keyboard, working out, etc.. I was just expressing the fact that school and work has been overwhelming - yeah.. I'm not sick and dying so my life isn't terrible but doesn't mean I'm all happy and chipper all the time either.

Comment by Brandon Schaefer on September 19, 2012 at 11:08pm

Thanks for the encouragement Alexa :) You're right.

Comment by Alexa on September 19, 2012 at 4:17pm

Keep looking up Brandon! Things work out, like DogWalker said, somehow seemingly all on their own. Soon you'll be looking back at yourself, laughing at any worry you may have had about your future. We all have doubts.... take it in a positive light and see without them we wouldn't have the same idea about what we really want in life, or the same drive to get it. Know in the meantime it all works out in the end...your job is to enjoy it for what is now :)

Comment by Brandon Schaefer on September 19, 2012 at 3:07pm

Thanks for the comment! :) I think you're exactly right, thanks for the insight and support. Very much appreciated.

Comment by DogWalker on September 19, 2012 at 3:00pm

I think it is great that you have found this community. The period leading up to and right after college can sure be tough, and it is great to create a support system for yourself to help you through. Some how, everything works itself out - even if what it works out to be was unexpected :)