So.. Long time no see. I've really missed you all in here. I love that I can be honest with everyone. And how supportive you are! :D
Well, to start on this subject, I really screwed up during the summer. I totally fell of the wagon.
In the spring my boyfriend though 6 years broke up with me. Ofcourse I was very sad, but I was dealing with the pain, and going to be okay. - Still eating pretty good at the time.
Then one month after the breakup I got the news, that my ex and my BEST GIRLFRIEND had slept together, and now would start a relationhip. He had already meet her family since she still live at home with them and they were just SOOOOOO in love with eachother..
At this point I broke down... My life shattered and I didn't feel like I had the ability to change any of it! I were just placed right in the middel of this, with nothing to say, still living with my ex, since there was a 3 month expiering at our appartment. So I couldn't even get away.
It has really ruined my summer, seeing them so happy, when I just fell more and more apart every day.
It's not even two months ago they started their relationship and allready they have meet eachothers families, and been on an family vacation together, and his moving to the dead end of the country just to be near her..
It sucks. I know I should just let him go, but after 6 years of ups and downs, and even starting this lifestyle together, it's really difficult for me. I just have to admit that I still love him. :/ A lot..
But now I feel readdy to get happy again! I try not to care too much about them. So the first of september I'm moving home with my parents until I can get a job, and start eating great again!
I WANT MY LIFE BACK NOW !
And I am going to get it. :)