I can't Cry.

I can't cry.

While out for a run, I really started to think about this. I remember being 13 years old and not being able to cry when my beloved Grandmother passed away.. In fact, I felt really guilty and I think that's what pushed me into pouring tears of 'grieving'. This was always a back-burner thought, but as I grew up and started eating healthier and healthier, I seemed to become almost emotionally unattached to a lot of the 'dramas' people brought upon themselves (as I saw it). I never was one to opt for boy drama, so I couldn't really relate that much when girlfriends would come teary eyed to me to help them pick the pieces up...and so on.

I had somewhat of a strict childhood (discipline wise) and know that has a little bit to do with me being pretty stern with myself and others when it comes to weakness and picking yourself and moving on - but in a way I view this as a strength.

Here's where I really want to delve into what my point is. Sure I cried like everyone does when something upsetting happened...but when I went raw vegan, and then high-carb high raw vegan (at times 100%, at times 70-80%) I just can't seem to shed tears for emotionally upsetting situations! From what I've read - when you heal your adrenals (the seat of your emotions) it becomes a lot easier to harness your feelings and not get so upset - or at least that's what the wind told me...and so I was wondering if anyone else can relate? When you went lfv did you experience a lot of health benefits, and part of it a very STRONG willpower (which I love) and stern mental and emotional motivation and mindset? I don't view this as a weakness, really - because that's why I believe so many people live in DRAMA due to weak kidneys/adrenals, poor eating choices, and poor lifestyle situations in general...

but it would be interesting to know if any other people on this forum experience this phenomena of "I can't Cry.

P.S. The last time I cried was when I watched "Earthlings" over a year ago..

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Comment by Amanda on January 28, 2013 at 9:17am: Thanks everyone for your replies. There's a lot of great insight - and clearly (as if it wasn't known) we are all very different. I definitely think as we become more in tune with ourselves and life in general, it DOES get easier to detach from pointless dramas. Another interesting point is crying because of HAPPINESS - not sadness. I can TOTALLY relate, as those have been the only times I can think of late that I've been moved close to tears. Healthier adrenals, a broader point of view, and feeling better about life, answers, purpose, and truth in general surely helps.

And awesome video, Jon. Really inspirational and kind of puts the important things into perspective... and I <3 :54 too! haha

Comment by Sheila Monthe on January 28, 2013 at 1:17am: I cry so easily, cried almost every minute from the song colors of the wind in pochahuntus, cried in a single man, rabbit hole, the trailer of les miserables (haven't watched the movie), etc,..... I always cry in movies. But when It comes to my life I don't remember the last time I cried about it. Sometimes I feel like an apathetic person until I see something realy beautiful or sad, other times when I should cry I just can't, I don't even care about the situation, and people become angry at me as if I'm obligated to. O.o

Comment by Elisheba on January 27, 2013 at 11:02pm: I cry a lot.

Comment by Jon Fergus on January 27, 2013 at 1:47pm: I can't cry over what I'd now call "pointless drama" anymore, which at one point in my life would've really seemed meaningful. I seem to simply not get caught up in it. For me, traveling and expanding my view of the world changed this entirely. Having seen what true suffering is, I can no longer get emotional about 'first world problems'. ;)

But... if there's a touching moment in a good movie, or I see someone being compassionate and loving then the tears well up with ease. Like they did when I watched this today (especially the scene at 0:54 :)

Comment by Brad Ramsay on January 26, 2013 at 9:32pm: I actually cried for the first time in a while the other day. i had been hanging out and getting odd jobs with an extreme alcoholic for a few days. he literally thought he was the one and only "second wing" of the eagle from some biblical prophesy (if anybody can explain this to me i'd like that; he couldn't), and every time I talked he told me i "don't listen". i took a massive verbL beating from this guy, perhaps with good reason, and began to consider taking a vow of silence the following day as i wept bitterly.

i ended up having a chance to speak about two nights later and i f***ing spoke. that night and the morning after, this man was extremely quiet, sat still all day and i believe went without drink all day!! (not even water or food). never seen a more sober person in my life.

that's my story :-3

Comment by Tony on January 26, 2013 at 5:46pm: I could have realated with this when I was 9... But I'm way past that now :D

Comment by Zummingbird on January 26, 2013 at 3:00pm: I can totally relate! I almost feel "cold" --but really I think it has a lot to do with being able to let things go more easily and having a firm grasp on who you are and what you want. The more you know who you are, what you want out of life, and learn to let go the less things seem to effect you. And eating raw is great for that--it's like you're more in tune with the ebb and flow of life.