Having a Difficult Time :(

Going to be honest, I've been struggling (motivation-wise) with my LFRV diet.

I had all the motivation in the world back in April of this year. I still can't believe I went a whole month going raw. I believe my motivation back then was better because I had my friends Abraham (who went cold turkey vegan at the beginning of the year) and Karen (a woman I met on a social website) who was around to talk to and show me some great recipes. Abraham unfortunately moved up North for college this Fall, and I lost contact with Karen. They were my real driving force with keeping tabs on me.

Right now, I'm back in the game all by myself.

I work in the mainstream restaurant industry, and I hate how I am constantly tempted every single day when I'm in the kitchen. I further hate how indirectly I'm supporting the meat industry. I wasn't vegan or even raw when I first started working there three years ago, so my perception on everything changed so much over time, and even though the money is great... morally, I feel wrong every single day since adapting to my new health-style.

Maybe this is all just a phase I'm going through at the moment. I do feel like I've been overworked, and Sundays truly are the only days out of the week where I can find my center and retreat away from the rest of the world to meditate and spend time alone with my thoughts. My mind has been very loud lately, and a little misguided, further tempting me into bad habits.

Maybe this is all just a phase, I'm hoping it passes by real soon.

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Comment by Shae on September 20, 2012 at 5:25pm: Thank you Teri for your support and Peter for your insight. I'm attempting to become more active on this website everyday (even with just reading things I didn't know before), and even keeping a personal journal to write in on my own time. Seems like it's helped some. I also need to read more books revolving around LFRV. I just picked up Thich Nhat Hahn's book "Savor" that's helping me be more mindful of consumption and the real reason we eat to survive. Great book I'd recommend everyone checking out!

Peter, I've been attempting to see if the Whole Foods in my area has been hiring any. I have been wanting to work there for so long just because I know it would be a better fit in my lifestyle than supporting the opposite every single day. I'm certainly working on it in the meantime!

Comment by Teri L on September 10, 2012 at 5:13pm: Shae! It sounds like even though you are having a difficult time, you have made an emotional commitment to yourself to eat a HCRV diet. I know you can do it! We are here to support you <3. The beautiful 'photos' section on this site is a great place to get inspiration for recipes :). When I first started out, I read and re-read the 80-10-10 Diet, the World Peace Diet, and The China Study over and over for inspiration. <3 <3

Comment by Peter Csere on September 10, 2012 at 9:21am: I had to leave my restaurant job a month after becoming vegan. Couldn't handle it. It might help you to consider a career change. Perhaps there is a vegan restaurant in the area?