Getting close to end the of the road (100% LFRV Day 147 of 150)

Congratulations to all the folks embarking on a 30-Day challenge!  So cool to see that!  I wish you the best!  I did one last summer and although it was hard, I learned a ton, built some habits that have served me tremendously and I am extremely grateful for the experience.  I hope you all get a lot out of this.

This 150 day challenge I'm doing has been a whole 'nother level.  The amount of growth I've experienced on this has been way more than I could have ever expected and in a lot of ways more than I can handle.  In fact, it often feels like it's too much.  It's like a powerful hose that I can thumb to resist the flow, but I can't turn it off.  Will I keep going or will I be partaking in world vegan pizza day on 6/30?  Read further to find out.

What did I eat yesterday?

1 yellow watermelon

32 bananas

1/2 head of lettuce

1 head of spinach

1lb of peaches

2 ataulfo mangoes

Recent pleasures:

-Ataulfo mangoes just keep tasting better and better as the season goes on.

-Increase in greens intake has helped athletic recovery and emotional stability.

-Fitness activities picking up, more motivation, having more fun.

-Waking up earlier and earlier without an alarm.

-Yellow watermelons from the farmer's market have been superb

-Seriously considering a major career and life change (at age 30).  I think I finally figured out "what I want to do with my life".

-Met a girl who works at a peach stand, we made plans to hang out this weekend and she is gonna hook me up some peaches.

Recent pains:

-Disillusion with current career situation

-Some depression, resistance to the flood of changes positive & negative that are happening very quickly.

I have a video planned for my 150 days.  Or at least I have several ideas, I may or may not incorporate them all into the video.

What's next?

So, after 150 days, what will I do?  Will I continue and stay 100% LFRV forever?  Or will I binge out on vegan junk for a while, hate myself for it and slowly crawl back to LFRV cursing myself the entire time for falling off the wagon?  The answer is somewhere in between.  I will be letting my intuition guide me.  I think I'll make some homemade HCCV dishes like rice and sweet potatoes with some cooked veggies and salsa/hotsauce.  I'll keep it whole-foods, low-fat and low-salt and see how I do on that.  My friends are organizing a big party for vegan pizza day (the vegan community here in Austin is awesome, made so many friends through it in the past 1.5 years) and at first I was planning on going and getting some pizza but my intuition is telling me not to go.  I know deep down, that would not be serving my highest self.  So I will try out a few homemade dishes and see how I feel.  If it doesn't feel right, I'll go back to 100% raw.  If it feels OK I'm going to go have some lentils and rice from an Indian place and maybe some chinese food.  So maybe for a couple weeks in July I'll eat some cooked and decide from there what I want to do.  Judge me if you want!  LOL.