I've been craving mangoes all the time these days. Well, I worked a half shift yesterday and all I could think about was mangoes. When I got off work around 2 I was starving. I made the big mistake I keep making over and over again: I went too long without eating. Four hours is a long time when you are trying to start off raw. So, instead of going home and eating my delicious mangoes, I went to a local vegan/raw vegan restaurant, but I didn't even order off the raw portion of the menu! I ordered a jackfruit bbq sandwich. Well, a few hours later I was sick. VERY sick. I've had food poisoning twice before and I knew what this was. I was up all night and had to end up taking phenergan just to sleep, which was greatly upsetting since I cut all meds out of my life almost a year ago! Moral of the story: I should have eaten my mangoes! This wouldn't have happened if I had just had the mangoes!
So, I woke up this morning and ate a mango. I like to put nutritional yeast on my mangoes, which gets me odd looks from my roommates. I packed my backpack up with my last mango, oranges, apples, sunflower seeds and almonds and headed off to work! I snacked on the seeds for the beginning part of my shift and then hunger set in once again. I couldn't even concentrate, so on my first break I ran to the breakroom and devoured some oranges, apples, and nuts. This is all such a learning process and I am not sure my food combining is the best, but I'm getting there.
The fruits and nuts only held me over for so long and I ended up breaking down and having some vegan curry with tofu for lunch. I haven't been hungry since and it has been hours. It is very interesting to see how differently my body responds to cooked vs raw. I feel lighter and just... right... when I eat raw meals, and I feel heavy and slightly off with cooked.
So, I failed at having a fully raw day. I honestly haven't had a fully raw day since February when I went fully raw for about 2 weeks straight and then broke down after The Color Run and had half a bagel. But, like I said, I am not going to get too upset over this! It is a transition and not a race! I think for now I am only allowing myself one cooked meal a day, preferably lunch.