Feeling good or feeling bad. What do YOU choose?

Hi. I started the raw food diet over a month ago. I did it for 5 days fully, low fat 100% and all that and then i went back to cooked food. Fastfood. And sugary food. And i am diabetic. I found it so hard to keep being raw. I was feeling too good, and light and strong and well in general. My sleep had become better... But at the end of the day it removed a very important thing from my life: that fog in my head which allows me to pretty much sleepwalk through life. I believe the key word here is Feeling. When i eat sugar and other foods iam intolerant to, and when i dont sleep enough, ibecome numb. Completely numb. I go through the days as a train in motion but dont really register what goes on. I have noticed even that recently i cant follow any conversation all the way tothe end without missing bits of it. That is bad! But when i eat raw food diet the healthy way, i feel great, my mind is clear, my body feels relieved from all that acidity from nasty food. I have no more excuse to go below my potential because i become so much stronger. AND I CANT STAND IT. There is no excuse anymore because i can hear and feel everytging and process everything so much better and I simply cant cope with it. 3 years i have been attempting to be raw for the rest of my life. And every time i use every excuse i can find not to go for it. One day its the b12, next its the protein... Enough already. Now there is no more excuse. And something deep inside of me, the little bit of me that wanna get out of that dietary coma, tells me over and over again that that lifestyle is what is the best for me. I so wanna do it. I so have to do it. I cant remember who on this site said there is no old obese person. It does not exist because they all die before they can get old. THAT' S ME IF I DONT DO SOMETHING NOW! Does anyone feel anything like this? Does anyone want to decide with me right here right now to take an owth to always do what is best for our health, our body, and ultimately our mind. I dont know about you but i need to realise that i am an addict to fastfood and sugar especially, and i need to gather all my strength and go through with weaning myself out of this. Who else has ever had these feelings? In any case i am now taking the owth, or whatever else it can be called, to refuse foggy brain, tired body and early death as satisfactory, instead i will always aim for best health and happiness, even if it is something i am gonna have to get used to. And as i had started the raw food diet about a month ago, i am not gonna say that i am starting all over from scratch, but that so far i have been raw, but with one month cooked. Lol, that sounds pretty miserable, but the idea behind this is that i have tried to keep two meals raw oit of three most days, and also, if i start over from scratch every time i lapse i will never get anywhere. Finally, it is also a way of accepting that not everything is perfect. But ican work on it. The fact that i have "failed" and carried on makes me feel more like i want to do it right than if i said i was to start again every time i do it wrong.
So dont hesitate to share on this blog your own experience and to accompany me if you wish in this time of making happy decisions, or decisions that are healthy and will bring happiness within no time. :)

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Comment by Zesty lime on June 2, 2012 at 11:50pm: Hi. Just wanted to put this out there, should we create a group, was thinking we could call it "one month at a time" or "baby steps" so that we can keep in touch and update where we got to, could have discussion topic for each month. Or we could call it "i choose happiness" actually that sounds a lot better. What do you think? :)

Comment by Zesty lime on May 31, 2012 at 3:12am: Cool la banane. Lets all work on that :)

Comment by L on May 30, 2012 at 6:32pm: I am up with you for being happy and making happy decisions :)

Comment by Zesty lime on May 30, 2012 at 5:58pm: I know. It is ridiculous. While if we take a minute to look at it properly it just makes so much sense. But what really kills me is seeing children being given sweets like its oxygen, and weaning them to solid foods with burgers. It is not good at all. Already our society is going down hill so bad, but when these children will be adult they wont live beyond their thirties. Anyway. Got to go to work, with smoothies for lunch lol. GO US! :)

Comment by Banana Dude on May 30, 2012 at 5:39pm: I find it kind of funny that people look at this lifestyle as wierd just because it isnt flogged on the TV and lests face it, the fruit and veg department is usually pretty small in the local grocery store.

Comment by Banana Dude on May 30, 2012 at 5:37pm: I'm with you!! "Never give up" is my favorite saying and I refuse to live as a victim and kill myself one thing at a time ;) Go us ;)

Comment by Zesty lime on May 30, 2012 at 5:17pm: Hi Brett. Thanks for your kind words. I think that no matter what kind of adversity we encounter we really need to fight it through. How about going for a month. The whole month of june. And the work clleagues, wait until they see the changes. Then if they carry on then they are simply jaleous. That is how hard this thing is that people simply think you crazy if you do it. That is another difficulty, it goes so much against all usual concepts of eating that it looks impossible, and it feels it at times. But we can do it. Its ok to be the one who is not normal. I actually have a tattoo that says "far from the norm" lol. But that is what this is about. And simply, eventhough i cope better with a foggy mind, i would like to carry on living for many years to come and if we dont eat healthy, and i dont, then we will never get there. And the thing is i love fruit the best. Right now i am having a breakfast of grapefruit, oranges and pineapple salad and i am loving it. But it is not as softly filling as bread and pasta. But anyway, are you with me, one month at a time, and no matter the slip ups. Many will come, many mistakes, but now is the time, more especially with the diabetes hanging above our heads. And anyone else wanting to do it too is highly welcome. Lets change our lives and desintoxicate ourselves. Its is an adiction, and we need to get rid of it. It is not gonna be easy, sometimes it may be physically painful, but it has to be now or it will never happen. :)

Comment by Banana Dude on May 30, 2012 at 4:45pm: Hi Stephanie, I'm feeling your pain.I'm a diabetic too and have trying to go raw vegan myself, been copping a lot of flack off my work mates, eating a 2.5kg bag of oranges on my lunch break or 8 bananas, it seems they all want me to fail because the words of encouragement are few and far between.I have had a couple of bouts of PTSD, that is the best place I can find to explain where my need for comfort food comes from, it's all in my head.I can go for a few days up to about 5 and then I have a binge on crappy food, I'm kind of sick of it, I have to make this work, there's no two ways about it.Maybe I'm afraid it will work, sounds kind of crazy ;)

Keep at it!!!

Regards

Brett