Day One, Again!

I have 5 1/2 year's sobriety in AA.  Many people brag about that as "Recovery from alcoholism."  However, the way I have attained my "recovery" is to simply transfer my addiction for alcohol to an addiction for SAD. 

At one year sobriety I got off psychotropic drugs.  At two year's sobriety I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and began using a CPAP machine.  At three year's sobriety I was diagnosed as borderline diabetic and began avoiding sugar.  At four year's sobriety I was diagnosed with borderline cancer, in multiple possible places, so I began to avoid dairy and carcinogens.  At five year's sobriety I diagnosed myself with heart disease (undetected plaque).

So now it is more important to me to arrest and reverse obesity-related, chronic, degenerative diseases than it is to stay sober and die from cancer,  heart disease and/or diabetes.  But this lifestyle is 100 times harder than sobriety--and there's no support for a LFRV lifestyle in AA, OA or alanon.

Doctors don't do anything but prescribe drugs, which makes the problem worse.  I can tell that by looking at the people on drugs!  Christianity doesn't seem to work for Christians either...but this program seems to work for a few successful people.  So I'm apparently stuck with the responsibility for my own recovery!  Boo hoo!  Nobody to blame but myself, and nothing to do but take responsibility for my own recovery!

Today I'm back to Day One, at around 200 lbs.  I haven't weighed exactly.