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Day 16 and Day 17 - The emotional healing goes with a rollercoaster.

Hi there !

So yesterday I felt like crap again, both in my body and in my soul.

It was just like the sky was falling on me and all my emotions were like a tsunami crushing down every single thing. I had a good chat with my partner that got brave and stayed by my side while I was falling into pieces on the floor. It is a great step for me in our relationship, we never had that intimacy before and it was also a great step for me in letting go and accepting to be vulnerable to that point to someone else.

But there was light in all that emotional thunder.

Lights in fact, lots of them.

The light of : forgiving myself and loving myself more each time I felt really bad and upset at myself.

The light of : sharing those intimate emotions with my mate, being able to tell my feelings in a harmless genuine way.

The light of : acknowledging the inner suffering I was carrying without being aware of it.

The light of : being closer to myself

The light of : feeling supported by my faith and my spirituality.

The light of : understanding that the true challenge in 80-10-10 and also probably why the failure rate is so high is the emotional part, not so much the calorie count.

So I went to bed feeling so vulnerable and crying hard on the pillow and knowing it was for the best and it was the best opportunity for me to  make the shift, make the change to get a better life and a better me.

Today is a different day. My body is cleaning itself too with diarrhea. I am still coughing some crap, still feeling weak and having headache but the essential oils are doing very good for my recovery and breathing. They are my only overfats ! :-)

Fruity hugs to the world,

Catherine Gorgeous.

Ps : I just saw this and wanted to share : exactly where I am !!!

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Comment by Daniela on July 3, 2012 at 1:00am

You doing it well!! Let it out and let it go.....even when its not easy,keep on going!! I can hear and feel you. I hug you :)

Comment by Athena on July 2, 2012 at 1:22pm

That's such a moving post! Isn't it amazing how this lifestyle enables us to recognise things that we were only able to either subconciously be aware of or not at all?

Regardless, all of the symptoms will pass and you are surely not the only one who is dealing with them. You're doing great! :)

Fruity hugs to you! :)

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