So, this is day 11 Today and I have great progress reports for myself. And one bad thing: My awesome MacBookPro of four years bit the dust due to a faulty graphics card. The worst part: I have video editing deadlines this week and we do not have lots of money as a family. No financial way of fixing or replacing this computer---this means no video edits, which was my beginning of a way to try and make money as a stay at home mom... I am trying not to worry about it too much because at this point because I don't really have anything I can do.
BUT ON A HAPPY NOTE!! 11 Days and I am feeling really great. My husband went out this weekend and had a "great" time drinking and smoking with his brother. I am so happy to say that this was the first time I wasn't insanely jealous of him. I gave up smoking and drinking when I got pregnant with my first kid and I was in a very undercarbed state of mind then. I used to sit at home and cry alone pregnant because I couldn't go out and have a good time with him. We were newly married and I was super insecure about it. After about three years of "being left out" the pain has faded to a dull sting and this weekend I actually felt HAPPY that I wasn't out wrecking my body. I felt stronger at home than ever happy to be on THIS path. The funny part is now that I am eating all raw foods, my husband is on the spot a bit. For the last year he has felt like I was holding him back because I wasn't ready to go all the way and it was actually an issue between us. He works long days and relies on me for food prep and stuff. Well, in the last 11 days he has continued to eat like normal and continued smoking and drinking. So I am hoping that he will feel released to finally start his own journey too. I am so grateful to have a hubby who supports the way I eat, but I also would LOVE to be partners in this. Don't want to pressure him though, it has to be his choice.
Also on a good note. I made it through all the family activities while maintaining my Raw goals. I am also happy because I didn't draw too much attention to myself either.
And lastly, I made my first gym goal...500 calorie burn in under 47 mins. Now my new goal is to do it in 45 sec. I also swam a half lap in 26 secs my new goal is 25 secs.
My monthly has returned and I have felt the hormones in my body a rushing! I am so relieved that I have it back. With my son, as soon as I got my flow back the weight I had been holding on to my body just let go of easier. I am still breastfeeding all day and night so it will be a while until I have a full night sleep--but it is something to definitely look forward too. I am using a Moon Cup and so far it is AMAZING!!!!! I definitely recommend it. Way more comfy than a tampon and it just seems right for my body.
Alright, tried to focus on all of the positives here!
Peace and love fruities!