Hi there !
The last two days have been hell, barely breathing, feeling like crap and no sleep seems to be able to fix it.
My emotions are just a hell, I feel irritable and upset for nearly anything and it is the worst time in my whole life.
I never thought I would write that but this is truly the worst time in my whole life and god knows I had to cope truckloads of **** already.
i am supposed to expect my period, my breast enlarged and is painful, my mood is a volcano of crap, I barely identify myself, I HAVE NEVER BEEN THAT BAD IN MY WHOLE LIFE.
All the meditation and prayers are doing absolutely nothing, i could kill half of the world and still not feel relieved from it.
This is truly the worst time of my life.
I can't figure out how i am going to make it to work and do all I have an not screw up my career by being so sick. i have been taking medication, drinking, eating fruits and veggies and smoothies and nothing helps. It is getting worse, just worse.
Yesterday my partner tried to talk to me and I went crazy, I just LOST THE PLOT. I have put on weight too and I feel very uncomfortable in my body. I have the worst cravings ever in my whole life for junk food.
Anywhere I look is just crap and I am starting to seriously question this lifestyle.
I need to breath. I need to be able to stay ten minutes without coughing myself to death.
There is nothing right in here, nothing at all and it is seriously getting to my brain too.
God help me now !!!
I don't want to be a monster anymore !