I create my own obstacles.
I don't want to leak out any energy at all in the wrong direction! blegh.
There are many things I notice (thoughts, motives, etc.) that were not in alignment with peace, but I remained in ignorance.
They always come back... and they don't ever reap what I want to reap if I'm not at peace with them... these are those areas where my mind/beliefs are not in alignment with what I truly feel... and I feel as if my authentic self does not conjure these beliefs from within... these "beliefs" (that even my authentic self does not believe) that are not in alignment are from insecurities and looking without to fulfill them...
I also feel this is where neuroticism is birthed (you see reality but you don't like it, a sort of internal rejection of it).
Empty. This is how I would describe such motives. Driving yourself in the way your mind desires, but having no reward intrinsically ("rewards inherent to a task or activity itself" en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Motivation), or having that intrinsic reward overshadowed...
Those ways of the mind/ego seem to cut off communication and harmony from within...
mmmm be watchful in all you do
for fluidity and soulfulness
peace & love~