Bananas for breakfast, organic valencias for lunch. And nothing i'm proud of for dinner.
Bicycled 9 miles, including several miles of just going up and down a local hill. I was trying to make myself tired, and it just wasn't happening. It took about 15 minutes of going up a hill as fast as possible to make myself even remotely tired, and i was far from exhausted. Even though i have messed up a few times over this week, my energy and athletic ability have still increased.
THE WORST TEMPTATION
I have gotten better at avoiding temptation while at work. I have gotten better at walking through the grocery store and skipping straight to the produce aisle. I have gotten to the point where, when i do mess up, i still eat vegan, it just might be cooked or oily. But it doesn't help that my girlfriend is choosing NOT to follow this same path. I still love her, but it makes things more difficult for me. The refrigerator is filled with foods that i don't view as food, yet somehow still tempt me.
Today, it was hummus and pita bread. The hummus was oil free, and not the worst hummus out there, but still not an optimized, high water content, fast digesting meal, like what i'm trying to gravitate towards. Now, i have acid indigestion and i woke up from my sleep prematurely. I'm not happy with that meal choice.
This is the one last, and worst temptation. If i lived alone, i would throw away all tempting foods in my house. The foods just keep showing back up next time we go shopping! If anything is going to stop me on this journey, it will be her. I just keep thinking that if i can continue down this path long enough, maybe she will want to join me. But for now, her habits are getting frustrating.
I'm getting meaner to myself lately in my head, and i don't see that as a good thing. Despite messing up several times, i do see that there is progress. I've seen so many YouTube videos of 80/10/10/fruitarian people who have been on this path for years, and seemingly changed overnight, and they make it look so easy. I have spent 30 years eating, for social reasons, for entertainment, as a drug, as a boredom cure, and for so many other reasons. It's harder than i thought to break 30 years of habits, and i've been working on it for months now. I'm just trying to remind myself that i'll get there, as long as i stay on the path. But sometimes i want to say mean things to myself when i mess up, and that's not really helping right now. That's not a detail about myself i admit to easily, by the way, but it is what is, so i wanted to be honest about it. Hopefully that improves as i attain more results.
ONE GOOD POINT
I love it when people notice and mention my progress. Today it was a manager at one of the stores i deliver to. She said "wow, you've lost a lot of weight" I told her about how i just eat fruits and vegetables now. She said "Oh, good to hear it, i was afraid you might have been sick or something." haha, i guess rapid weight loss is kind of rare in America.
Morning Weight: 204
Cycled: 9 miles
So far: 40
Left for goal: 210