I am terribly anxious about stupid crap today. Car flat tire. Skipping lunch with co-workers because I don't want to put crap in my body. Possible social activities this weekend. Women. What will I do with my dogs while I'm gone for WFF? Possibility of chiropractic college. It's all tying my stomach up in knots. I want to go home and lie down. Despite getting 9.5 hours of sleep last night, I don't feel my best today.
I've eaten some cooked food every day since my 150 days ended. Some days A LOT. Yesterday I had 3700 calories of raw food and I still made room for an afternoon vegan chinese food binge. At one point I had rice and bean tacos on corn tortillas 3 days in a row!! My body has been really good about purging it all on schedule, but I still have digestive pains from the poor digestion of the beans and all the spicy salsa.
Bottom line is I just don't feel my best. For the first 5 days cooked food didn't really effect me at all. I kept pushing it. Soy sauce. Oreos. Corn tortillas. Beans. Stuff I should NOT be eating even if I'm not 100% raw. My body has basically been fine (other than throwing up that one time) but it's all screwing with my head. I can feel myself losing my grip on being centered in my emotions.
Today I'm raw so far. I made 6L green smoothie this morning and so far I've had 2L of it. Hopefully that will be enough for today. I guess I can always make more when I get home. My goal is be 100% raw again by 7/15/12. That is the anniversary of my first 30 day challenge which started on 7/15/11.