I had a great 13 1/2 day stretch on the 30 day challenge. I'm sure because of getting not enough carbs today and perhaps slightly less carbs than I needed the previous days, I total caved and ate thai food and then ate bread when I came home. Not only that, but I basically demanded that my husband bring me there. I enjoyed it in the moment, but now I feel like total ####. Physically bad, yes, but emotionally even worse. I completely 100% regret it it and at this moment just want to cry. I'm really angry at myself for not following through as well and not using the tools I have to ride out/eliminate a craving, I was doing so well.
The mission for me right now is to get right back on track. I don't have a choice, I feel horrible and I don't want to feel this way.
Physically, my stomach hurts, I'm awake at 4 o'clock in the morning. I'm not surprised, but I'm amazed at how my emotions changed almost immediately. Not sure if it's from the food itself or just because I feel bad about my actions. Either way, I don't like feeling this way and I know it will only get worse if i don't jump back on the wagon.
This shows me how clearly how cooked food is addictive, not because I think I will continue and not stop, but because it makes me feel so crappy inside. I suppose I just need to forgive myself and move on.