Well I am still trying

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Comment by Greenmama on May 31, 2012 at 5:17am

I know you're not trying to restrict carbs consciously, Nichole.  I wish you the best.  Your tummy will gain strength and flexibility with time and practice.

Comment by Nichole D on May 31, 2012 at 12:24am

I am not even trying to restrict my carb intake.  I am just not eating enough of them becasue it hurts to fill my tummy anymore than what I do.  My first day of OA yesterday was a success.  Really hard but a success.  I ate 3 organized meals and remained abstinent in between .  That is my abstinence. I have found that even when I snack on fruits and veggies it still sets me into binge mode. In the morning I stuffed myself with the biggest green juice I could. That is my favorite breakfast.  Then I drank only water and decaffinated, unsweetened teas to calm my stress levels in between meals.  Then I ate 8 bananas for lunch and then nothing else but the water and tea untill dinner.  Dinner was 1/2 a large watermelon.   I didn't snack last night. I was up until 12 am like an addict, not really hungry but anxious to fill myself.  But I RESISTED and I lost 3 lbs !!!  Yippee!!!  Now just for today I need to try to eat more fruit at the designated meal times.  This morning I am going to add 2 bananas in addition to my green juice. And I will try to stuff them down.  I agree with you completely that people who restrict carbs have completely been misguided.  Our bodies need carbs to fuel or mind and muscles but we need the right kind of carbs.  Healthy fresh choices in replacement of all the carbs I am used to eating with no nutritional value.  I just hope my tummy will stretch out so that I can consume more at my designated meal times eventually.

Comment by Greenmama on May 30, 2012 at 1:32pm

And in no way do I mean that to say that a 12-step program is not a great thing to do.  I go to one.  But I see lots of people who constantly struggle because they don't understand basic physiology.  Restricting carbs never works long-term.

Comment by Greenmama on May 30, 2012 at 1:28pm

When you can get 1000 calories for breakfast, and 1000 calories for lunch, you're likely going to be fine.

Comment by Greenmama on May 30, 2012 at 1:26pm

Nichole, with all due respect to OG811LFRV, what you have is a classic case of undereating triggering a binge.

You are eating 600-900 calories and trying to get through the day, then blaming addiction when you are starving at night and shoving everything in sight in your face.

I've been through this myself.  I still go through it sometimes, like today, when I work a lot of hours with very few breaks and get home late, and then the cravings come in.  Now I know that eating "clean" carbs rather than stopping for garbage will satisfy the craving. 

Comment by ORGANIC811LFRV on May 29, 2012 at 2:50am

For the past 30 years I have done an immense amount of study in the field of advance understanding of the human mind.  It is my "blue-blankie" and I take to it like a duck in water.  I can have a very in-depth discussion with any accredited shrink and leave them in my wake.  LOL   I couldn't go any further in the "Nature of Personal Reality" and Spiritual Psychotherapy and I still was at a loss at why there was such a lack of a clean path out of this ego induced hell.  Knowing the intricicies of your mind, your dark self, your desires, and admitting to how responsible you are for your reality is one thing that is admirable and necessary for personal growth.  But then what?  We stop there. 

 

In walks nutrition and the part that phood manufacturers have done to make drug-enduced zombies and emotional messes and addicts out of all of us.  Yes, there is a personal responsibility component to life.  Yes we "choose" our path.  Yes we are the ones who did it to ourselves...to a point.  Long ago the chemicals we were ingesting took over, took command and left the personal equasion still being the bad guy. 

 

STOP THIS INSANITY!!! 

 

You are highly sensitive.  Sensitive to high-fat, chemicals, additives and the rest of the mess.  So avoid the s*** as though you discovered that we had been invaded by alien conquerers 50 years ago and they have been poisoning the phood supply.  They can't poison organic produce thank goodness! But everything else. 

 

If you knew this was a fact, how would you feel? 

 

The aliens go by the names of Monsanto, Dow Chemical, The Cattlemens Association, The Dairy Producers, The FDA, and the list goes on. 

 

WAKE UP AND TAKE CONTROL OVER YOURSELF 

 

Hugs!

Comment by Nichole D on May 29, 2012 at 2:33am

I have a hard time eating tons of fruit in one sitting.  Like I can have 1/4 of a large watermelon but I won't want anything else for a while.  Then i'll pick at like peaches or bananas here and there.  But more than 4 bananas seems impossible for me to get down at this point.  Then I fall apart at night. I am trying to eat enough calories but at the same time, I seem to making up the lack of calories with crap at night due to deep rooted emotional issues and addiction to the phake phood.  So yeah I think I really need OA right now to beat the feeling of lonliness.

Comment by Greenmama on May 29, 2012 at 1:36am

I also go to OA.  It didn't work until I ate enough calories.  I can't stress enough that eating more is the key.  But OA has tons of benefits, too, and that's why I still go.