Ok so I never did get strep like the husband and daughter. So eating fresh fruits and veggies are totally working. My throat got scratchy but never went further than that. I am having one meltdown after the next. I seem to love myself during the day and hate myself at the end of it. I know that a person is supposed to fail and fall down but I really feel at war with myself. Food and me. What's good for me and what's not. I am joining overeaters anonymous as well from an idea I recently got from a new friend! I already have had the book but I really haven't had the time/desire to peel back the onion layers of my pain! I still don't know how I am going to but I suppose it is time to start a journal again. I have always had addiction problems it seems my whole life to fill the voids of a severe lack of love. Everytime I recover from something, food takes over again and again. Not just food but unhealthy crap! Clean from meth- 12 yrs. Clean from cigs- 4 years. Food unfortunately has never left. It has always been there. The addictive, unhealthy, body and earth torturing food. It has been my closest companion, comforter, disappointment filler, remover of voids. I want this new lifestyle for myself and family so bad I can imagine how much better things would be mentally/spiritually. But like an addict I can't fully wrap my arms around it becasue my love for myself and my self worth means so little to me at this point. I don't know how to be positive toward myself for any length of time. I do good for 3 to 4 days then I feel like I am dying with again, no comforter. Is this normal?