Day 91 was yesterday and it was a doozy! Roughly the 1st 1/3rd of my juice feasting was healing digestion, the colon, and minor bodily disturbances. The 2nd 1/3rd was cleaning out the polution and toxicity that was stored for years. Major healing and major detoxing! I felt physically much better after this stage. On day 60 I thought I was home free...NOT!! LOL That is when I started the journey of detoxing old personal issues. Primarily how I've dealt defensively with others.
Most of my childhood was spent with a big question mark in my mind. Life simply didn't make any sense. People who loved one another were arguing all the time. My family dynamics was dysfunctional and average. When I started growing up I saw more and more of this in my school years. My early years of relationships reflected the turmoil. When I entered my 20's I had a relationship that was earth-shaking and life-teaching. I started my education into psychology and took to it like a duck to water.
Fast forward many years and that teaching has reached epic levels. I have a vast education in the nature of personal behavior. I am a gifted intuitive and my sensitivty talents have proven to be spot on. Especially when I interact with others. My sole lesson in my life that I am still learning to this day is to be kind no matter what!
People will be fearful because of their own issues. No matter how diplomatic you are, especially on a chat-board, they will come from their position using you as a player in their drama. Unfortunately no matter what you do, the result will be what they have pre-decided. You are a pawn. Nothing you can do except exit as soon as possible.
This is the lesson yesterday served me. We are not to blame for others issues. We ARE responsible for how we experience ourselves interacting with them. We are responsible for are actions towards them. We often want to strike back. More often we want to try to "fix" their issues. Neither paths bring us peace.
There are many on this site that are warm and friendly. There are some that are here for batting practice. Stay clear of them, give them their own little corner of the site and wish them healing. We are here hopefully for healing. That healing includes kindness to others. Sometimes being kind is letting be
That was day 91 of my 92 day juice feast. One of my goals in this leg of my journey to health was to no longer be "The Assassin" that my reputation boasts about. I can honestly say that I am much closer today to this goal than I've ever imagined.
On to day 92 of my 92 day juice feast. Tomorrow I will blog a recap of my healing.